The "Yall Dont Really Know Me...." List

1. "You prolly think....I sling dick to these hoes like nunchucks/Well, you can think what you want but/ I think you've been watching too much BET Uncut/ You need to get real and check out my real life/ I ain't a tip-drill, don't care what it smell like.......Yall dont really know me like you think you know me" - Drake f/ Phonte & Elzhi "Think Good Thoughts"

2. This song has been on constant rotation for a minute now

3. Peeps have asked why I keep posting "Yall dont really know me like you think you know me" all over the place

4. Welp...the short answer is I'm feeling misunderstood. Let the facebook pics tell it all I do is go out and surround myself with a bunch of gorgeous women....

5. ....when the truth is Im actually a homebody and it's like the same 7 women are in all the pics lol and they are my good friends and nothing more so obviously.....

6. "Yall dont really know me like you think you know me" lol

7. *steps down from narcissistic soapbox*

8. Still not really sure how/why John Allen Muhammad AKA The DC Sniper got excuted so fast, yet Charles Manson is still chillin on death row

9. There's just something VERY "interesting" about that lil tidbit. Im just sayin......

10. ".....confusion can give way to doubt/ And there are times when I fall short of what I say...Im all about/but at your best, you are love/ You're a positive motivating force within my life" - Isley Bros. "(At Your Best) You Are Love"

11. Most Favorite....I fell short of what I previously said and for that I apologize.

12. You know that above all I am most definitely for you and only want to improve upon your quality of life, and not take away from it or add stress to it

13. .....and you also know (by now) that I can be a bit extra and dramatic with a habit of prematurely jumping off the hypothetical cliff....so work with me, k?

14. Tis a hazard of me caring about you. Remember : Scorpio = Passion

15. See! I am soooo not perfect......I only play perfect on social networking sites lolololol

16. I swear I be in "(these blogs) talking like it's just you and me"

17. Relax. Relate. Release AKA 'Blow that shit out!'

18. "Now that it's all over, what did you really do yesterday that's worth mentioning?" - Coleman Cox

19. Im not sure what language this is that my bbm spellcheck speaks but Ive never seen it before

20. When I typed the word "really" and it suggested that I meant "reales" or "realza"..........the fuck?!?!?

21. Alls Im saying if you're considering getting the H1NI vaccination shot is this.......

22. Presently this country cures for profit. So the same people who give you the shot are the same people that get paid if you're sick. Capiche'?

23. What's it say if the makers of the vaccine refuse to take it them damnselves?

24. Hello! Is this thing on?!?!?

25. I hate to sound like a C-O-N-spriacy theorist but Im just saying!

26. Dear Sammy Sosa : Skin rejuvenation my ass! Get your life together homie!

27. And what about the new eye color, son? Whats that? Retina rejuventaion!?!?!?!?

28. "You know that's right/ You aint white/ So quit holding ya ass tight/ 'cause you cant pass/ So why you keep trying to pass?/ Wit'cha black ass!" - Ice Cube "Be True To The Game"

29. Shouts out to Dave for FINALLY coming up with the ever elusive 8 min remix of Jodeci's "Forever My Lady" thats he's been telling me about in all the damn near 15 years I've known him

30. I wouldnt be surprised if this fool found time to mix down his own damn version to save face but I digress lol

31. Are there really any words to be said about The Bears right now?

32. 5 interceptions Cutler? And Ron Turner....dont let me catch yo punk ass in the street!

33. Normally I'd never rejoice that anyone is going to jail......

34. ....but in Gucci Mane's case Imma make an exception *does the happy dance*

35. ".......*sigh* and so we wait. Waiting for the next great rapper is almost like waiting for Jesus" - @chiggady

36. "10 pennies won't ever be a dime. Pass THAT along!" - Kai

37. I've decided that the biggest lesson Ive learned in all of '09 is that being nice is some bullshit

38. Im STILL trying to crawl my way out of a hole I dug for myself 2 plus years ago in the name of being "nice" to trife ass people

39. Or maybe singling out "nice" is a bit much......

40. We'll just say I need to practice the power of 'NO' alot more. My apologies in advance if my practicing the power of 'NO' makes me come off as a asshole at some point in time.

41. This abortion stipulation added onto the proposed health care bill is a slippery slope and I just dont like it

42. Damn you Bart Stupak!

43. "I personally figure/ that my Harvard style/ is too deep for you Nursery niggas!" - Lord Finesse

44. You may file that one under #feelingmyself

45. In reading "The 5 Love Languages" I've discovered that my primary love language is "Words of Affirmation"

46. Check out the 5 love languages and see if you can figure what your language is

47. I swear Im a student of this Love shit

48. What is life other love with various other shit mixed in?

49. On with the lesson we go! Mr. Allen it's on you. Take us home......

50. "To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down....." - Woody Allen

Misc. Blog 4

So if we were not to count my "goodbye" post on inchicity from 10/2.....Ive pretty much not written a blog for the whole month of October? Wowwwwwww!

I cant even begin to tell you why this is so. It aint like the world has stopped revolving around the sun. It aint like there aint been enough shit happening in the news. I, for whatever reason(s) just havent been moved to write shit.

Maybe becuz I've been on some "treading water" shit for the last couple months I've been too preoccupied to write. At least with inchicity I was SUPPOSED to post every Friday. But now that that's over I can wallow in my valley so to speak. Plus to keep it 100, the last couple months I really struggled to write shit for them.

So anyways....now that Im pretty close to the shore, and I wont have to tread water any longer, maybe I can get back into the swing of things. Lord knows there's enough on my mind. I just need to get it all out.


PS. Did I mention that Im effectively BACK on the overnights 2 twice a week? If anything that definitely lends itself to me writing more. We'll see I guess.....


Be blessed yall.

Teej

We Can Get Deeper (What We Talkin' About?)

“What we talkin’ bout real shit or we talkin’ bout rhymes?
You talkin’ bout millions or you talking’ bout mine?
What we talkin’ bout? Cuz I ain’t got time
For what people be talkin’ bout all the time
What we talkin’ bout fiction or we talkin bout fact?
You talkin’ bout fiction? Hold up pardon my back
…..I ain’t talkin’ bout profit. I’m talkin’ bout pain.
I’m talkin’ bout despair. I’m talkin’ bout shame.
I ain’t talkin’ bout gossip….I’m talkin’ bout real shit.
Them people playin’
What is you talkin’ bout? I don’t know what y’all sayin’”
- Jay-Z ”What We Talking About?”

I’ve been listening to that song on repeat for the past couple weeks. It sums it all up for me. I’m a little disgruntled with people in general and with pop culture as a whole. Almost everything and everyone seems to spew superficial nonsense to me lately. Where’s the depth yall? Are we are suffice with just staying on the surface?

Maybe I need to lay off the twitter. Between the increasingly ridiculous trending topics, the play by play on all the dumbest tv shows (Frankie & Neffe anyone?), and of course the ever popular ”lemme tell you what Im doing at the club” tweets, maybe twitter has sped up my disdain for pop culture because it serves a big ass sampler platter of it all.

Do I give a shit about Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian? Not really.

What did Beyonce eat for breakfast? Why the fuck would I care?

Is Amber Rose’s ass really real? #kanyeshrug

And then there is the beast of “Reality TV”. How or why did anyone see fit to have crooked ass Tom DeLay on “Dancing With The Stars”? Did the producers know that he had to resign his political seat due to pressure coming down because of his illegal activities? Rod Blagojevich tried to sell a Senate seat yo! That is crazy illegal and immoral, and yet…..he did a fucking media tour!!! Letterman, The View, Larry King, etc. WTF? I wont even go in on “Real Housewives of Atlanta” or “Real and Chance”, let alone “Tiny and Toya” or the aforementioned “Frankie and Neffe”. Have I tuned into any of those shows? Yes but it damn sure aint must see TV for me. I aint Tivo’ing that shit!

Of course Im not calling ANYONE out in particular. We are all guilty of some (or in drastic cases…..ALL) of this shit. Everything in moderation though yall. Do what you do I suppose. Far be it from me to say what works for you personally. Im just voicing my frustration at all this monkeyball shit.

I do realize that I may come off as simply venting here and if that is indeed the case I encourage you to gander up at the title of this blog. No not the title of this particular entry, but the title of the blog as a whole. Case closed.

The "Just A Valley" List

1. “Ooh child things are gonna get easier/Ooh child things’ll be brighter/ Someday….We’ll get it together and we’ll get it all done/Someday when your head is much lighter/Someday….We’ll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun/Someday when the world is much brighter” - The Five Stairsteps “Ooh Child”

2. BFF that was for you AND me! Be strong love.

3. Tis my blog and I tells the truth in this mug, right? Right!

4. And with that said……Im pretty sure Ive been battling probable mild depression for the last month or two

5. Mood swings, generally feeling down, the not give a fuck-ness, unmotivated to do much, financial stress, lack of a love life and relying on my good friend ‘Ze Likka’ a bit too much about adds up to mild depression I think

6. I dont mean to alarm you….Im okay I promise……it’s just a valley that I must see my way through…I’ll be back up in a minute

7. “My shit always work sometimes!” - Mike Lowery

8. Congrats on your impending wedding Nichelle!

9. Oh how I love love…..*sigh*

10. “….Sometimes love takes a long time/But wait for love and you’re gonna get the chance to love/Wait for love, wait for love..” - Luther Vandross “Wait For Love”

11. Boy I tell you….you interrupt one lil white girl country singer’s acceptance speech and ALL the idiots show their true colors!

12. Granted that it was wack of ‘Ye to do, but is it really THAT serious?

13. Sure we’ve made strides, and despite the President being black, we still got a ways to go……..word to Joe “You Lie!” Wilson!

14. Every couple months THEY remind us that we shouldnt get too comfortable just because the President Of The United States is black!

15. I hate for this list to be melancholy but alas it’s the true emotion of the minute so far be it for me to not roll with it

16. Bare with me here….

17. “I dont know what was said, my baby/I thought that everything was fine…/My days and nights would be a living hell if you go away/So think about the misery that you’re gonna put me though….” - Atlantic Starr “Send For Me”

18. LMAO….I really have to laugh at myself and how extra I can be at times

19. Whatsinever is going on with this here cold shoulder/silent treatment situation I’d shole like for it to be over so that life can return to normal

20. That’s how you know it’s real. At least for me anyways. When something goes wrong and you literally have the sick to your stomach feeling. THE WORST I tell you…..

21. Im sure it’ll all be resolved soon. Our shit is too deep, too strong and too solid for it to not be.

22. Shouts out to Reese and Tina Divina on the completion of their poetry book projects. Click the links and support them yall!

23. On the (not so) low…..Teej is on deck with his poetry book as well

24. And if this is your first time reading me….yes I refer to myself in 3rd person alot

25. I love when my friends win and accomplish their dreams

26. If nothing else Im happy for them and it inspires me

27. "I used to be the little engine that could. Now Im the BIG engine that better!” - John Mayer

28. If that aint the realest shit ever……

29. How they gon play up Serena snapping off on the tennis judge and give it hella coverage but Ive barely heard about Roger Federer doing the same thing

30. Plus these marks act like they never heard of John McEnroe before

31. As big a fool as he usta act Im surprised they even let him near organized tennis events

32. Thank ya Jeezus that the whole Beyonce 1st Baby Daddy thing is over now…..(I think)

33. What a clusterfuck!!! If you didnt know before….you know now that all them blog sites be making up shit and copying off each other

34. Trust yall all woulda knew before now if ANYTHING hadda went down with me and Bey back in the day lol

35. “I cant cope with the pressure/settling for lesser/ the Gods left lessons on my dresser/ so I can bloom and blossom….” - Ghostface Killah “Can It All Be So Simple (Remix)”

36. Gosh this is more melancholy than I wanted it to be

37. It’s almost over though so bare with me…..

38. Someone wrote in my facebook honesty box that they thought I was getting bigheaded

39. How Imma be bigheaded whilst a month and half behind on my rent? Where they do that at?

40. So no anonymous person….trust that Im very far from being bigheaded. I try to never say never but I’ll risk it here….I’ll never be bigheaded. Too many folks around would slap me silly if that were the case

41. Dear Jay Cutler, you’re fucking up! Stop that shit! What….you got Rex’s old locker or something?

42. Actually….Dear Chicago Bears as a whole….we wont tolerate that fuck shit this season, period!

43. “Talent is God given. Be humble. Fame is man-given. Be grateful. Conceit is self-given. Be careful. - John Wooden

44. Am I the only one that thinks that maybe Barack is playing too nice with the Repubs as far as this health care issue?

45. Maybe he needs to be on some “Bush/Cheney fuck it shit” and get his agenda done….damn what anyone else gotta say.

46. Errol I know Ive been neglectful of my blog but I think Im back homie!

47. I think I like BP3 and OB4CL2 equally

48. They give me different things but both are dope in their own right

49. Shaneen thanks again for being who you are. And remember…..

50. “…at least I aint on her doorstep yelping her name while butt naked with a peace medallion and snow boots on. Now THAT’S crazy!” - Me

FUCK Rant 6

FUCK summer for skipping the Chi this year
FUCK Gucci Mane for just simply existing
FUCK Mariah for putting Gucci on the remix of ”Obsessed” so that white people will know he exists!
FUCK everyone at my job for interrupting me while Im trying to type this out
FUCK Chris Brown’s bowtie!

FUCK anyone that doesnt believe that EVERYONE should have health care
FUCK a ‘Free such and such’ tshirt campaign for obviously guilty muffoccurs. They are supposed to be for political prisoners and the wrongly accused. Your cousin did that shit and you know it!
FUCK Paula Deen for her deep fried butter balls. Oh just fucking shoot us already, why dont you?
FUCK stalking and harassing your ex. Push the fuck on dude!
FUCK having to suffer through writer’s block

FUCK the crime/homicide rate in the Chi right about now
FUCK waking up to the news that MY picture has been wrongly attached to a blog about Bey’s first boyfriend. Im TJ….not Lyndell!
F%#K arrogant white males that think they’re entitled to everything just because they’re white males. If yall dont GTFOHWTBS. This aint the 50’s homie!
F%#K not being comfortable in your own skin
F%#K you if you cant dig what it is that an artist does

F%#K BET for the “Frankie & Neffe” show
F%#K every single one of you 1.9 million bastards that tuned in and made “Frankie & Neffe” the highest rated debut in BET history
F%#K the fact that apparently this devastating LA fire was set intentionally
F%#K the critics who got something to say about ANY and EVERYTHING President Obama does. Can he fucking live already?
F%#K people STILL fronting and sweating Mike Vick like he aint already paid enough
F%#K the fact that Jon and Kate are even “stars” now

F%#K all these damn invites to become a fan of something on facebook. If I wanna be a fan of something…dammit I will. You aint gotta presure me into it!
F%#K Whitney’s botched performance on GMA. Whit you can do better
F%#K Pfizer and the rest of the drug companies for being on that bullshit
F%#K you if you aint picking up what Im putting down!

My Faith In Love

An article recently came out on msnbc.com entitled “Marriage Eludes High-Achieving Black Women”. In this article two Yale researchers supposedly crunched some numbers, did some interviews, and came to the conclusion that the more educated and successful sisters became, the less likely they are to get married and have a family if they so choose. Now maybe my c.o.n. spiracy spidey senses are off a bit but I saw so much innuendo and so many disturbing undertones in this article it literally fucked up my whole day. No for real….I was in a pissy mood for the remainder of the day!

They said that single sisters were hesitant to have a child because they didnt wanna seem “ghetto”, but when a single white women has a child she is deemed “liberal”. Also that another reason for this trend is that there arent enough highly educated/accomplished brothers to go around. And the when the brothers are highly educated/accomplished they tend to “outmarry” AKA marry anybody else but a sister.

I know propaganda when I read it dammit!!! Please heed the words of the great Chuck D yall….‘Dont believe the hype’.

“So THEY say we’re running out of time/ We’re running out of water/ We’re running out of light/ There are far too many questions/ and just not enough answers/ And if we keep on asking THEY gon tell US what WE like!” - Solange “6 O’clock Blues”

After reading the article I passed it along to some friends of mine on Twitter expecting everyone to be equally outraged and disgusted. And while no one was in clear agreeance with the article, there were some who were not as disturbed by it as I thought they would/should be. I think somewhere in this big head of mine I kinda expect all my people to be riders and advocates of black love like me. Now granted I could have been a little too moved by the article but what I (think I) found is that alot of my friends are jaded and skeptical of the durabilty of black love. And that to me is heartbreaking.

Could be the eternal optimist in me. Could be the hopeless romantic. But to hear my friends and peers express the doubts that they do as to whether love, and more specifically BLACK love can endure and last was a bit shocking. While I’d never be so dumb as to think people have to share my views on such matters, I think it just kinda hurts to hear some of the (seemingly) nonchalant attitudes about it that I did.

I feel like I should keep reiterating the fact that I very well could have been not reading/interpreting my friends comments clearly because I was literally seeing (and probably reading) red after that taking in that piece of shit article.

I say all that to say….no matter what….hold on to your faith in love. God is love, right? So dont let anyone or anything shake your faith in either. (You like how I backdoored that, dont ya? lol)

And lemme just close with this : I promise you aint a thing in the world that can make me stop believing in love. No matter what ups and downs I go through as far as my love life I am solaced by the fact that I KNOW in the end I will have the type of love and marriage that I have envisioned for myself. This I know for sure….and I hope you believe in yourself enough to know that you’ll get the love that you deserve as well.

Tainted Love (What Kinda Love Is This....?)

She said “I don’t know… This guy seems too nice. I’m suspicious.”

And I go “Well damn cant the brother just be genuinely nice?”

Then she replies “Never came across that before. He gives compliments, he wants to see me. WTF?”

Aint that something? The fact that he DOES give compliments and makes it known to her that he wants to see her makes her pump her brakes and put her guards up?!?!? That leads me to wonder what kinda behavior had she experienced before and began to take for “the norm” if those 2 genuine gestures throw her off course.

In “Cant Get Enough Of Your Love Babe” Barry White has a line that goes “What kinda love is this that you’re giving me?”. I’ve always loved that line. You know you getting some real shit when you gotta step back and examine it like “Hold up! This is some new shit! I aint never been loved like this before! What kinda love did you say this was again?” lol

I cant speak for anyone else but I dont know how NOT to wear my heart on my sleeve. If I’m digging on you, you’ll know it. And most likely everyone around me will know it too.

“Im too old to be fronting what Im feeling/Denzel’n acting like you aint appealing when you are” - Jay Z

So Matou if you’re reading….just know that we arent all the same. Some of us are indeed built differently. Some of us are actually pretty damn good at expressing ourselves. Some of us know how to genuinely compliment a woman. Some of us know how to be attentive. Some of us do in fact mean what we say.

It may seem that we’re far and few in between but we’re around love.