Its how I feel...you dont have to necessarily like it.

On Whitney....

2012-02-11T19:22:00.000-08:00

Granted we are still in shock, I think it’s important to remember to NOT be sad for Whitney. Whitney is at peace now. Death, to me, is only sad when the deceased did not lead a full life. Whitney lived yall! She’s traveled across the seven seas and experienced this world from end to end. So I am not sad in that respect. As we all know she has battled some demons. There is some sadness there because we don’t know for sure that she absolutely defeated them. I think we were all waiting on that “comeback” to happen.

In hindsight, the musical gifts that she has left behind in a career that was just shy of 30 years will ensure that she is never ever forgotten. So there is comfort in that. Much like now, in the almost 3 years since Michael Jackson’s passing, when you hear a MJ song, it makes you smile in rememberance of him, right? We’ll be there soon with Whitney. We’ll smile and remember “The Voice”.

Who I am REALLY concerned about is those closest to her that she has left behind. THEY are the ones who really need our prayers and good energy. I am the most heartbroken for Bobbi Christina and Cissy. We all know how there has been reports of Bobbi Christina possibly having substance abuse issues, and also how Cissy fought like hell to help in any way she can to help Whitney get clean for good. Losing your mom or losing your child has to be the toughest. And though they are divorced, you gotta know Bobby Brown is hurting as well. So if you’re the praying kind, pray for those 3. They need it the most.

Day 14 - A Song That Reminds You Of Your Girlfriend (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-25T00:44:00.000-07:00

Algebra “At This Time”

Quiet simply, it’s the greatest love song you’ve never heard.

“My arms brag to each other about how you feel…..”

“Forgive me if my hunger conflicts what you need/ I pray for moments you would only be consumed by me/ Often times, we receive and then regret/ I havent had a reason to yet…”

“Who really cares what others may say?/ They probably missed the chance on feeling this way/ about love and what I know is true/ Give them time and it can happen to them too/ The deepest feeling that you’ve ever known/ The greatest passion that’s ever been shown/ A flame that flickers and never leaves you alone…“

Maaaaaan listen…..!

Day 13 - A Song That Reminds You Of A Former Friend (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-24T00:38:00.000-07:00

I’mma cheat for this. 2 songs came to mind and I couldn’t decide which. Sometimes friends fall off for whatever reason. Sometimes it’s for a season, and sometimes the shit is forever. But alas, I the eternal optimist, am always hopeful so here goes nothing.

Phyllis Hyman “Old Friend”

“Old friend it’s so nice to feel you hold me again/ No, it doesn’t matter where you have been/ My heart welcomes you back home again”

De La Soul “Trying People”

“We were supposed to rid the world of danger/ These days we nod heads and small talk like polite strangers/ It’s natural to fall off/ Just land close to the tree/ I’ll be there if they need me to be…”

Day 12 - The Last Song You Heard (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-23T14:43:00.000-07:00

Taylor Dayne “I’ll Always Love You”

People sleep on Taylor when the “Blue Eyed Soul” conversation comes up. I guess because she’s mostly known for her Pop/Dance stuff, but when you get past that and hone in on the voice…….? This was her only song to chart on the R&B charts I think but she still had some joints I could get with. This is another one that takes me back to being like 10 and sitting around listening to The Quiet Storm at night. My brother usta hate me for that lol.

Day 11 - A Song On The Soundtrack Of Your Favorite Movie (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-22T14:47:00.000-07:00

Duke Ellington & John Coltrane “In A Sentimental Mood”

This movie. This soundtrack. This song. Need I go on?

Day 10 - A Song By Your Favorite Band (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-21T14:48:00.000-07:00

The Roots Feat. Wadud Ahmad “False Media”

I was kinda torn here. At first I thought of going with a song by Mint Condition or Klymaxx for this one. But then I figured I’d go with the band that had the most music in my itunes and so we have The Roots. I listen to them more than any other band (as in a group of people that play instruments and shit) so it seems I went in a huge circle just to end up where I started. Anyways “False Media” is the first song on my favorite Roots album, “Game Theory”. The song is dark. Hell the album is dark and gritty for that matter. But this song is the perfect opener for such an album. It’s defiant. It’s hard-hitting. It’s in your face and you cant deny it. Listen as Black Thought starts rapping from the perspective of a man with nothing to lose, then as a soldier fighting in a war of which he knows not the origin of, and finally as Big Brother. Shit is dope. Take a listen. I gotta warn you though….it’ll make you wanna overthrow the government.

Day 9 - A Song That Makes You Hopeful (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-20T20:27:00.001-07:00

Sweetback Feat. Amel Larrieux “You Will Rise”

Amel’s voice = Honey. The lyrics : “You will rise/ The limit is the sky/ Dontcha let nobody fill your head up with their lies…”. So on those days when you find yourself questioning yourself, play this song. It’ll take you there every single time. By the way this song is totally interchangeable with Day 3’s ‘Song That Calms You Down’.

PS. I almost used India. Arie’s “There’s Hope” for this one….for obvious reasons.

Day 8 - A Song That Reminds You Of Your First Love (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-19T20:25:00.000-07:00

Hi-Five “I Like The Way (The Kissing Game)”

“And when we’re alone/ I know we’re in love/ ‘cause I cant get enough…..” The funny thing about Puppy Love is you can’t tell the lil pups that they aren’t really in love. And who’s to say they aren’t? Almost all of the emotions of love are there, if only on a smaller scale. Hell, if anything, the love at that age is even more pure because it’s unpolluted. Anyways whenever I hear this song it instantly takes me back to 1991 and being crazy about Dana. I can still hear my brother teasing me now.

Day 7 - A Song That Reminds You Of The Past Summer (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-18T15:15:00.000-07:00

Lalah Hathaway ”Breathe”

It was the best of times. It was the worst of times. Last summer was a muthafucka for me. Plain and simple. I’d been unceremoniously fired from my cushy hotel concierge job of the last 7 yrs and I had little to no savings. I’d just started subletting a friends place and unemployment was taking FOREVER to come through. Bill collectors were on my ass. I had NO income for 2 months. It was all too much I say! *exhale* So yeah last summer was a bit stressful but this song kept me sane. In hindsight, me getting fired was the best thing for me because Lord knows I was ret ta go but sometimes when the money is good it’s hard to walk away. I’m working for myself now and happy. I wouldnt have been able to be here if it werent for last summer……and this song.

Day 6 - A Song That Reminds You Of A Best Friend (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-17T12:53:00.000-07:00

Stevie Wonder “Think Of Me As Your Soldier”

I dont have ONE best friend. Lucky me, I have a handful of them! Shout out to (BA, Dave, Dot, Meta and Jones) I also count my lovely (former) Johnson girls amongst them too. So I cant remember if Lori dedicated this to Lesley or vice versa but I do know I love how Lesley and Lori love each other. And I do know that I’m horribly pro- anything Stevland. And I also know that this song being dedicated to a friend or a loved one is lovely declarative statement. Winefest is on deck. See you soon ladies!

Day 5 - A Song That Is Often Stuck In Your Head (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-16T12:10:00.000-07:00

V.V. Brown “Shark In The Water”

There are a million catchy songs that periodically get stuck in my head. This one I suppose is the latest and greatest. I must give a special shoutout to my dear friend @Chickenb00 b/c she corrected me when she caught me singing “Baby there’s a snake in the garden!!” (which by the way is totally interchangeable and totally works). Then we got silly with it and made up stuff like “Baby there’s a snark in the warden…!”. Anywaydoe, if you’ve never heard it, make space in your head and youtube it….because you will sing it without warning.

Day 4 - A Song That Calms You Down (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-15T11:42:00.001-07:00

The Winans Feat. Anita Baker “Aint No Need To Worry”

Maaaaan listen. These here words? “Aint no need to worry/ What the night is gonna bring/ It’ll be all over in the morning“…. I mean, really! What else needs to be said? And then at the very end when Anita goes Penecostal on yall…. “Everyday’s a new day/ Yesterday is dead and gone/ Just take yourself home/ and just carry yourself on/ Sun’s gonna shine on your face/ Make you feel like/ like you can run this race/ and you can be the winner/ Take the prize and go home…”. I’m pretty sure she was testifying in that recording booth because they surely had to fade her vocals out to end the song.

Day 3 - A Song That Reminds You Of One Or Both Of Your Parents (25 Songs in 25 Days)

2011-04-14T13:19:00.001-07:00

George Benson "Turn Your Love Around"

This song reminds me of my mom. I remember her playing this a lot around the crib as a kid. I think this was possibly one of her Saturday morning clean up songs. Also it reminds me of her because I stole her Best of George Benson CD with this on it. I have it to this day as a of matter of fact. It still has a sticker with her name on it too. All is fair in Love, War, and Music Collections I suppose. *insert evil laugh*

25 Songs, 25 Days. Day 2 - A Song That Reminds You Of Your Ex

2011-04-13T13:42:00.000-07:00

Lalah Hathaway “Forever, For Always, For Love”

Imagine breaking up with someone and the for the most part, the break-up being mostly your fault. Now imagine THIS song seemingly following you around everywhere you go and weighing you down like an 80 lb monkey on your back. Turn on the radio…it’s there! Turn on the digital music channel…it’s there! Shuffle your damn ipod…it’s there! Today, I can count this song amongst my favorites. But round about the first half of 2005?….WHOOOOOOOOO! It was ROUGH I tell you.

25 Songs, 25 Days. Day 1 - A Song From Your Childhood

2011-04-12T11:33:00.000-07:00

Prince & The Revolution “Darling Nikki”

I begged and pleaded for the “Purple Rain” album as a 7 yr old. My mom finally relented and gave it to me for Christmas BUT I was expressly forbidden from listening to ‘Track 5’. So of course the very first moment that I could, I snuck and listened to it. I just remember sitting there with a dumbstruck look on my face like “WTF does ‘masturbating with a magazine’ mean!??!!?”

25 Songs, 25 Days

2011-04-11T11:44:00.000-07:00

I'm going in!!!!!!

Revolution Now (A Haiku) (4/10)

2011-03-05T16:21:00.000-08:00

Mau Mau or Drop Squad.
Pick one. I'm thinking it's time.
Revolution now.

10 Random Songs 3/4/11 (3/10)

2011-03-04T08:41:00.000-08:00

You know what this is. I put it on "shuffle" and wrote about the first 10 songs that come up. Like to hear it? Here it go!

N.W.A. "Something Like That"
Yes they were ground-breakingly hardcore, but they were still Hip-Hop. This song is a perfect example. Dre and Ren going back and forth (and in unison!) on some ol braggadocio Run-DMC shit. I think the track coulda did without the train horn thingy but how I look telling Dr. Dre how to make beats?

Emily King "Alright"
If you're not in the know, Emily King is a singer/songwriter chick from NY. She released an album in '07 called "East Side Story" with a track that you might recoginze called "Walk In My Shoes". The remix had Lupe Fiasco on it. Anyways I've always dug singer/songwriters. Something about singing your own songs always translates to me as being more honest and soulful. This particular track is about having a shitty day, but persevering through it all. This whole album is dope.

Art Blakey & The Jazz Messengers "Warm-up Dialogue Between Lee & Rudy"
This is the intro to the re-issused 1958 Art Blakey album called "Moanin'". I think Lee and Rudy are members of "The Messengers". Whatever the case I guess Art liked the dialogue enough to keep it in the vaults lol. The thing about this album that always sticks out to me is how hard Blakey was going on the drums. He was like Questlove before Questlove was born! If you dig jazz this is a must have.

Rich Boy "Boy Looka Here"
I may not be able to understand every single word because of that thick Alabama accent, but Rich Boy puts his words together better than most give him credit for. I ain't accusing him of being anyone's lyricist of the year, but if you listen hard enough he says some clever shit. With that said, this song is all about the track. Straight southern marching band shit guaranteed to get you crunk whenever you hear it. Plus the chorus lends itself perfectly to having to tell someone the fuck off. "Boy Looka Here....!"

DeBarge "Rhythm Of The Night"
"Rhythm Of The Night" came out in 1985. I don't think it was until 1986 that I realized that El was a man but that's neither here nor there. I remember literally hoping that they would play this on "Friday Night Videos" every single Friday. Yall remember that show? Anyways this shit went hard. You couldn't not dance if you wanted to when this came on. Plus this was like the first real hit for the songwriter Goddess Diane Warren.

Kanye West "Can't Tell Me Nothing"
Defiant! That's the first word that comes to mind when I think of this song. This definitely goes on my "Leave Me The Fuck Alone" playlist. This was one of the first Non-Young Jeezy songs to use Jeezy's signature ad-libs (with his permission) before urban music literally ran a train on said ad-libs for the next 2 years. If there were ONE thing I'd change about this song is that 'Ye ends the 2nd verse with "Let me know if it's a problem then/ Aight man....HOLLA then!", which woulda been the PERFECT way to end the song. That shit shoulda been at the end of the 3rd verse!

Michael Jackson "We're Almost There"
From his 1975 solo album "Forever, Michael". I can't remember when I discovered this song. I think it was shortly before he passed. I do remember playing it on our tribute edition of "Superior Radio". Anyways I'm guessing it was written and sung from the perspective of a guy to a girl like "Don't give up on our relationship" but it can still be an inspirational song. His voice was still maturing on this one. Definitely not the bubblegum sound from "I Want You Back", but noooooot quite the grown up Michael voice we know and love from "Off The Wall" and on. Before Mike even breathes on the track, you cant tell me the arrangement doesn't feel like you're on a magic carpet ride. Shit is lush, yo! Shout out to Rae, Ghost & Meth for sampling this on "Our Dreams"

Mary J. Blige Feat. K-Ci Hailey "Not Looking"
Everyone knows the history with these two, right? Everyone knows how the heartbreak of this relationship fueled Mary's "My Life" album, no? Okay so it came as a HUGE surprise to all those that knew when Mary agreed to do a duet with K-Ci on her 1999 album "Mary". In my personal opinion, Mary only agreed to do this song so she could tell him the fuck off in public under the guise of music. Dont believe me? LISTEN to Mary's verses. Actually fuck the verses. Skip to the last minute of the song and listen to Mary's ADLIBS....you know the shit that WASN'T written down? Yeah, case closed.

Whitney Houston "One Of Those Days"
Clearly post -"Show me the receipts!" Whitney will never come close to pre-"SMTR!" Whitney, but I really fucking loved this song. This was her 2002 comeback song that no one really paid attention to but it knocked to me. This shit feels like springtime to me. And we can all relate to the subject matter of needing to take a day and get away. Plus the Isley Bros. sample was a nice touch I think. If you're not familiar, I encourage you to youtube it. You'll prolly dig it too.

Carole King "I Feel The Earth Move"
One of my fave classic singer/songwriter chicks from the 70's. This is the very first song on King's MONSTER album "Tapestry". I love this whole album. When the song starts with the piano riffs you get lost in it, and then she starts singing, and you sing along, but you forget that it's actually a hardcore love song. Sure must be nice to have someone make you feel like this I imagine. FYI "Tapestry" is one of the more popular albums in the history of recorded music, so if you call yourself a music fan you kinda need this in your collection to validate such a claim. I'm just saying.

Might Be (2/10)

2011-03-03T10:53:00.000-08:00

And talk about unlikely
You like me despite me
I didn't think it likely
nor consider that one day we might be
fine tuning this thing in the right key
'Cause what tends to be is
people often hold on too tightly
and turn a beautiful thing
into something unsightly
But not we
though we might be slightly OC
in that this thing came to be so quickly
But did I mention
that we defy conventional convention
and our ship stays its course
daily and nightly
Given by the law of nature
we have a right to be, rightly
and bask in the glow of all the things
that this here situation might be
Including love.

Wants And Needs (A Haiku) 1/10

2011-03-01T08:33:00.000-08:00

Wants and needs differ
I am back in the workforce
This is some bullshit

10 Random Songs

2011-02-15T14:22:00.000-08:00

Totally stole this concept from the homie J. Moore (who prolly lifted it from someone else), but hey...nothing is new under the sun, right? The trick is adding a twist to make it fresh and all your own, ya dig?

The whole thing is pretty simplisitc. Take your ipod/itunes/mp3 player put it on random and write about the first 10 songs that pop up. Got it? Good. Here we go.....

Andy D "Party Werewolf (I Need A Freak)"

Honestly I dont know much about this. A couple of weeks ago I was at my dear friend Lesley's house and I uploaded as much of her cd collection as I could find. She told me I needed this album. I havent really gotten a chance to absorb this album yet, but I trust Les' ear. Im sure it's dope.

Lauryn Hill "No More Trouble" (Live In Tokyo) (Unreleased)

We all know how much Lauryn digs them Marleys. This is a cover of a (possibly) lesser known gem from the late great Bob Marley live in Tokyo. From the classic J.Period Presents....Best Of Lauryn Hill Mixtape (you can find it online for FREE.99!)

Jay-Z "Bitches & Sisters"

On this one here Jay comically "breaks down" the difference between a bitch and a sister. With examples such as "Sisters hold you down/ Bitches hold you up/ Sisters help you progress/ Bitches'll slow you up". I'm still not sure if this song was suppose to be a serious or not.

New Edition "Re-Write The Memories"

I stil aint forgave Puffy for fucking NE over on their "One Love" album. This was classic NE balladry here produced by Jimmy Jam and Terry Lewis. This had 'single and video' written all over it and Puff didnt even want it on their album. He cut off the album budget before they got this and wouldnt allow it. They had to buy this song out of their own pockets. Youtube this one. If you're a NE fan, you wont be disappointed.

Nikki Giovanni "Africa II"

If you know anything about me, then you know you cant say NOTHING bad about Nikki around me!! This is off her album called "Like A Ripple On A Pond". This piece is about her tour of a Cape Coast Castle in Ghana over a track that sonically sounds like a Gamble & Huff production from '76 or shit. Extremely dope, but then again I am biased towards anything having to do with Nikki.

Prince & The New Power Generation "Gett Off"

"24 positions in a one night stand...". Everytime I think of this track that's the one part that comes to mind because who the fuck counts the number of positions? Anyways this shit was funky! This song is a testament to the fact that only Prince can get away with certain shit. Who else could say "move your big ass 'round this way so I can work on that zipper, baby" and make it work?

Eve Feat. Gwen Stefani "Let Me Blow Ya Mind"

Hypnotic track provided by one Andre Young + Non-threatening yet average lyrics + Stefani on the hook = Pop Chart Winner. Eve was on a roll by time this joint dropped. Plus all the MTV love she got back when they still played videos didnt hurt. She's always been an average lyricst to me but her delivery is rough. This track still wins though.

Jully Black "You Changed"

I've always liked this track off the Brown Sugar soundtrack. Jully and I have the exact same birthdate (11/8/77) so you KNOW she's dope! Seriously though, Jully is mad slept on. If you've never heard of her google/youtube/amazon her. She has like 5 albums. You wont be disappointed.

Ani DiFranco "Pixie"

Ani DiFranco fucking rocks! She is one of the most profilic singer-songwriters of last 20 years and if you aren't familiar please catch up! The thing I dig about Ani is she tells stories in her songs. Just random stories about everyday life, everyday people and everyday situations. Like on "Pixie" she sings "The man behind the counter looks like he's got a half dozen places he'd rather be/ And furthermore it looks like he's prepared to take it all out on me/ Buddy I dont really care what your problem is, just dont make it mine/ Come on kids, let's all hold hands and pretend we're having a good time".

Destiny's Child "Happy Face"

I'm not ashamed to speak on my affinity for this song. It's hella fast and if you dance to it you'll be winded as hell (....so I've heard). The thing I dig most about this song are the lyrics. It's basic life knowledge that we all need to keep in mind while trudging along life's journey. Google the lyrics and see if you dont agree. And for the record I've never danced to this song ~~outside the confines of my own home~~ and you cant prove otherwise!

I like this. I think I'll make this a weekly thing.

I Swear I Love My Blog But......

2011-01-21T22:45:00.000-08:00

....."Having an active blog means giving a fuck on a consistent basis. I salute all who are capable." - @DiggsWayne

Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd that about sums it up. Clearly I have stopped caring enough to update this thing. But I dont wanna say I'm done with it. I'm pretty sure I wont delete it or anything like that, but ummmmm yeah.

Anyone seen my blogging mojo because I cant find that bitch. Did my tumblr take it away? Things that make you go 'Hmmmmm?'

In any event, welcome to 2011. I'll be back soon.......I think.

Misc. Blog 8 (For AOL)

2010-10-31T21:40:00.000-07:00

Welp....it seems as though I've all but abandoned my precious Teejsays blog. Plus with me taking up tumblr (tjarmour.tumblr.com) now, it would seem to be the proverbial nail in the coffin for this here establishment but no! Much like Brett Favre I dont know when to quit. I love this blog and I will never give it up. Even if I take months between posts so....nah! How do you like that haters? (As if someone were really hating on this blog lol)

Seriously though, are you happy AOL? Here is your October blog (about nothing). Btw...Im not talking about America OnLine. I have a friend with the initials AOL who notified me that I hadnt blogged for all of October so this is simply to appease her.

Trust that I have sooooo much on my mind right now but I will save it for a list. The "They Tryna Cut Our Lights Out" List is on deck.....this week I swear. So until then.....

Be blessed yall,

Teej

The "Somebody Buy Me A Drink!" List

2010-09-22T08:28:00.000-07:00

1. "No matter where you go, you are what you are playa/ and you can try to change but that's just the top layer/ Man, you was who you was 'fore you got here/ Only God can judge me so I'm gone/ Either love me, or leave me alone" - Jay Z "PSA"

2. How I managed to go 2 1/2 months without doing a list is beyond me

3. Yall know these things are like my therapy, right? Like, if ever you wanted to know what was going on in my world, all you would have to do is read these things

4. *lays on therapist's couch, takes a deep breath, and begins talking* lol

5. Big shout out to Kire, Khari, and Angie for pushing me to get up at an open mic and do one of my pieces

6. One of these days Imma actually get around to doing it I swear!

7. So funny that I did/do tv, have a radio show, speak on panels, am personable (when I wanna be) to all....and yet I still have stage-fright issues

8. In case you were unaware....my life is one BIG paradox

9. Always has been and probably always will be. I've made peace with it.

10. "...hope that we feel this, feel this way forever/ You can plan a pretty picnic/ but you cant predict the weather/....my intentions were good/ I wish I could/ become a magician to 'abaracadabra' all the sadder thoughts of me/ thoughts of she.../ asking what happened to the feeling that her and me had/ I pray so much about it, need some knee pads/ It happened for a reason, one cant be mad" - Andre' 3000 "Ms. Jackson"

11. Sometimes I wonder if I'm even the marrying type

12. Lord knows I have my ways about me but I don't think I'm impossible. Difficult maybe, but not impossible.

13. I still feel like I pretty much know all the things that make a relationship wonderful and everlasting.....

14. ....but knowing and doing and/or applying said knowledge are two different things....and THAT'S the part I've not quite mastered....I think.

15. You cant tell me that this love and marriage shit ain't the equivalent to catching lightening in a bottle. To get it clicking on ALL cylinders and the such......Shit is just rare yo!

16. And even with all that it still ain't gon be perfect. Nothing ever is.

17. *le sigh*

18. Love is like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold on to some of it, but most will be spilled. Love is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the love slips away and is lost. - Chicken Soup for the Soul

19. I'm pretty sure I drop a "*le sigh*" like once per list but hey....it's like that in this thing called Life. You will probably find yourself sighing frequently.

20. What is up with these crazy white people inflicting harm on themselves and then blaming it on a black person?

21. So lemme get this straight Bethany Storro ....you pour acid on your own damn face and then blame it on a black woman? Really? REALLY?

22. I don't mean to be harsh Bethany, but you deserve to look like the elephant woman for the rest of your life for this dumb shit.

23. Unless I'm mistaken....my friend who we'll call "Babydoll" more or less told me that we can't be friends while she's on some "new path"

24. She said that she "will remember (me) always" though :(

25. To be quite frank about it, I always considered us really good friends and this sucks and it hurts and it leaves me totally confused but....I guess we'll wait and see what's what.

26. Gotta laugh to keep from crying I suppose

27. "We were supposed to rid the world of danger/ These days we nod heads and small talk like polite strangers/ It's natural to fall off/ Just land close to the tree/ I'll be there if they need me to be" - Pos (De La Soul) "Trying People"

28. Have you ever watched the show "Are You Smarter Than A 5th Grader?"

29. If and when you do....just brace yourself b/c that shit'll have you feeling bad

30. It's like "No you little fucker, I don't know offhand who ruled England in 1589, but I know how to juggle paying the rent, keeping food in the house, and keeping clothes on your back!"

31. Am I the only one who thinks there's been way too many devil/evil/vampire/occult movies as of late?

32. Hell....this newest one is simply called "Devil"

33. What the fuck is up with that? Yall had better stop supporting all these crazy movies putting all this twisted energy in the atmosphere

34. #TheDevilIsALiar

35. "If you're bold enough to say "We're going to take back OUR country" be bold enough to say from Who!" - Regan Gomez

36. If you dont know who Christine O'Donell is....you need to google her.

37. Alls I know is....if these Tea Party crazies keep picking up steam like this.... "Sarah Palin 2012" ain't as far fetched as us sane people had hoped......

38. . .....and if that's the case......who's meeting me in Toronto!?!?!?

39. The thing I don't get about "Don't Ask Don't Tell" is.....we now have openly gay elected officials! Being gay ain't touchy and taboo no more.

40. Un-do that dumb shit already!

41. Payday loans and Rent to Own places = Where a Nickle costs a Dime

42. That's one of the things about life though. Sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do

43. "Somebody Buy Me A Drink!" - Thelonious Monk

44. I've had this Monk song in my ipod for years and never really peeped it til recently but OH LORDY....talk about a song for my life's soundtrack lol

45. Save for the O-Line....our Bears look pretty good to me this year

46. That wretched pre-season didnt scare me at all

47. In my poem "Love Is" I wrote how Love is : a Stevie song and a Nikki poem......

48. ....so for Lesley and Nick to have a Stevie song sung and have me read Nikki's "Resignation" at their wedding.....

49. ....well it seems I was on the money b/c their ceremony was beautiful!

50. "If Tyler Perry fucks up "For Colored Girls..." I will personally kick his entire ass clean on outta that closet he's been so comfy in!" - @JustPhly

Crazy, California

2010-08-23T01:51:00.000-07:00

She said to me
"You're crazy!"
and I rebutted
"Love is crazy. So crazy is the destination."

Then I started on this whole trip about how pursuing love
is like taking a cross country drive from
Connecticut to California
when you don't have one of those fancy GPS thingies

All you have is
a cooler full of food
good music
an old-fashioned road map
and a stubborn determination to get to where you wanna go

Of course the weatherman said it wasn't gone rain
and it wasn't til you couldn't see 10 feet in front of you
that you found out the windshield wipers need to be replaced
but still you keep on trekking

Inevitably you'll have arguments
"but I asked you if you had to go before we passed that last rest stop"
and
"you didnt hear me say turn off on Interstate 4? Now we're in Virginia!"
but those are to be expected

If you can avoid the urge to call it quits and bus it back to homebase
remember to be considerate
compromise when you can......even when you think you're right
and maybe just learn to bite your tongue a bit
when they're driving too fast or too slow for your personal taste
you'll make it to Crazy, California in no time

Together.

Play It For The Jury, The Defendant, & The Plaintiff.....

2010-08-17T15:18:00.001-07:00

*(You got it on) tape?! Fuck yo punk ass tapes!" - B-Roc

For those keeping tally, you can add another 'L' to audio/video recordings' record in court trials.

Disgraced former Illinois Governor Rod "Nest Hair" Blagojevich was convicted on 1 of the 24 charges against him. That one charge was lying to the Feds. Now that carries a potential maximum sentence of 5 years but let's keep it real........son shoulda been convicted and thrown under the jail! We'll see what happens with the impending retrial but now......he's at home watching Letterman with his feet up.

Do they not have him on tape saying "SOMEBODY gon hafta pay me for this Senate seat!"? Obviously having a crime or confession of a crime on tape doesnt hold the weight we thought it did.

If I decide I'm gon get down with the "Crime Pays" movement I'm gon tape all my dirt and then play "Play It For The Jury, The Defendant, and The Plaintiff" b/c having it on video apparently doesnt mean shit.

Shall we review?

In '91 damn everybody in the world saw Stacey Koon, Lawrence Powell, Theodore Briseno and Timothy Wind beating the living snot out of Rodney King......ON TAPE! But as sure as water is wet, they werent even convicted of excessive force. And had the LA Riots not kicked off in the aftermath of that trial, the civil suits that followed may not have seen the light of day.

If you saw the R.Kelly tape, two things are crystal clear.......... 1. That girl in the tape was clearly underage! And 2. That's R.Kelly in the tape! Mole my ass. We know what the fuck R. Kelly looks like! There was no doubt it was him in the damn tape! And yet....he was able to skate.

And then there's the Oscar Grant trial. Multiple videos show Grant on his stomach, face down, arms behind his back, and yet BART officer Johannes Mehserle shoots him in the back anyway. Mehserle now faces awaits sentencing on a involuntary manslaughter conviction, but hey that's a lot better than a first degree murder conviction, right?

So obviously much like the fictional song in the "Story of Gangstalicious" episode of "The Boondocks", the District Attorney can "Play it for the jury, the defendant, and the plaintiff....court reporter AND the baliff!" and it still wont matter. Because when the jury is left to decide whom they believe more : the flashy and engaging defense attorney or their own lying eyes......most times they dont believe their own lying eyes.

Dont Blame Kim K. YOU Made Montana Fishburne Do Porn!!

2010-08-02T13:44:00.000-07:00

Are you genuinely shocked that Laurence Fishburne's 19 year old daughter Montana has elected to pursue fame by introducing herself to the world via the star-making conduit known as "the sex tape"?

No....really, you're shocked for real?

IT'S MOSTLY YOUR FAULT!!!!

Montana has repeatedly been quoted as stating that she is taking the Kim Kardashian route to fame. I swear 'fo Jesus I have been telling my friends for a while now of how I don't at all dig the fact that Kim Kardashian not only put herself on, but her whole gottdamn family!!!!!, on account of her sex tape being released!

She then spun the publicity from the sex tape into forays into film, tv, fashion, and lots of other shit. Yall have ate it all up and made this chick a celebrity. I mean she's made a freggin empire! So what's that say about our society?

The fact that yall are "Keeping Up With The Kardashians" is why Montana thinks this shit is viable. She has been watching all this shit unfold for the last 3 or 4 years and these Kardashian chicks get love like they're the fucking Kennedys and you're in disbelief?

There are other Montana's out there. The only reason this is so newsworthy is because she has a famous actor daddy that may have been able to pull some strings and get her auditions if she so chose. She decided that shit'll take too long and busting down on tape is way to go.

So the moral of the story is......if we stop making these talentless celebutantes famous for nothing other than having inherited money and fucking on tape, maybe we'll be able to save the 16 yr old that's currently watching all this go down, who cant wait to turn 18 so she can put herself on in the same way.

P.S. Lemme just add that I don't blame Kim Kardashian. She's done nothing but run with the fame and notoriety bestowed upon her. It was never her intent for the sex tape to be released, but it was and it made her famous. That's on us, not her. I didn't even know who this chick was until the sex tape came out. Hell, I remember when it was referred to as the Ray J sex tape.

The "My Mama Is A Thug" List

2010-07-07T00:14:00.000-07:00

1. "There are 2 rules to life : 1. Never sweat the small stuff. 2. EVERYTHING is small stuff." - As heard on a TV commercial

2. The fact that the repo man called me and asked me to call him back b/c he's tired of looking for my car.....

3. Does this fucktard expect me to call him back like "Yeah you can come pick the car up from this address......"?!?!?!!?

4. Where they do THAT at?!?!

5. And how they got my mama's addy I'll never know.

6. She didn't co-sign or anything. Her name was nowhere on the paperwork so what gives?

7. She said if she had been home she woulda thrown hot water on the repo man for coming to her house

8. My mama is a thug from Altgeld Gardens if you didn't know

9. I dont know what's crawled up Chase Bank's ass and died. I called and told them my "unemployment, no money coming in" story. I only missed April and May's note. I paid June's on time so WTF?

10."....See its a family thing/ so dont even trip/ my cousin ('mari) got the nine/ and my mama got the extra clip!" - The Coup "Takin' These"

11. LOL @ 'my mama is a thug'

12. Okay she aint really a thug thug in the traditional sense....but the point is you dont want none of 'nessa! Trust me dog, that aint what you want.

13. Word Michael Steele? The war in Afghanastan is "Obama's War"??!?!

14. Dont you wish there were a real "Drop Squad" for these ol Alan Keyes token ass negroes?

15. Are you happy Tee? I'm blogging!

16. I'm sure you are gonna enjoy your trip to our wonderful city

17. This new gun law Chicago has passed misses the point in my opinion

18. "So what they do?/ Go and ban the AK?/ My shit wasn't registered any-fucking-way!" - Ice Cube "The Nigga Ya Love To Hate"

19. It aint like these street cats are going to the gun shop and filling out paperwork

20. We need to get these lawmakers a copy of the movie "Strapped" like ASAP so that they'll get a damn clue

21. God bless the memory of Harvey Fuqua

22. You should google him if you aint up. He put in WORK for Motown

23. Can you believe it's been almost 10 years since Diamond and Tionda have went missing?

24. God bless them wherever they are

25. Maaaaad nervous about the Oscar Grant trial

26. If this dude skates and Oakland gets on some ol 'Riots aint nothing but diets for the system' shit, can you even get mad?

27. "I'm so glad that I found someone to believe in again/ .......Come on, let's fall in love/ You're the woman I've been waiting for...." - Stevie Wonder " I Believe (When I Fall In Love It Will Be Forever)"

28. My starry eyed ass has always held a romanticized view of love

29. Thank God there are plenty of sappy love songs to let me know I'm not alone

30. I bought some lemonade the other day from a lemonade stand that 3 little girls had going

31. The lemonade tasted more like lemon water but bless their little hearts

32. One of the rules in "Life's Little Instruction Book" is to ALWAYS whenever possible buy whatever a little kid is selling......

33. ....and I firmly believe that and I obey but if yall could see the sour face Im making as I type this.......

34. I've had like 4 convos with friends in the past week where they've been pissy about getting older. And each time I hit 'em with this quote

35. "The only thing worse than getting old/ is NOT getting old" - Jay Z "Cant Knock The Hustle (Remix)"

36. Because you would not have wanted to die 10 years ago, right? Right!

37. So Lindsay Lohan got 3 months in the joint, huh?

38. Did you see the act she put on in court when she got the word? Heifer you got 90 days, not 90 months! If you dont sit your lil privledged ass down somewhere.....

39. She better hope they dont put her in gen. pop though. She'll really meet some "Mean Girls" then

40. Ummm Prince....if you really said THIS.....you tripping!

41. Detroit is taumbout sending parents to jail for missing parent/teacher conferences

42. Now I would make a "It's So Cold In The D" joke but...*shrug*....I suppose desperate times call for desperate measures

43. Gina : I dont want our friends to feel alienated
Martin : Cole? Are you alienated?
Cole : Noooo! I'm a Baptist!

44. "Martin" reruns never get old

45. I dont care where he signed to play.......a one hour special on ESPN to announce where he's signing? Cant that shit just be a blurb scrolling across the screen?

46. And the fact that on his new twitter account his bio says "King of Akron"........

47. Really 'Bron? Akron!?!?!?! lol

48. Superior TV is on the way muthabishes!

49. Forget yall....I aint writing due to pressure no more!

50. "I hate writing, I love having written." — Dorothy Parker

One Of Those Days (#30....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-30T13:47:00.001-07:00

I wish I could
end my 30 N 30
on a high note
but you can quote me
when i say that it's been
one of those days
that life jumps up
and reminds you
of how big and bad
it REALLY is

Responsibility
taps you on the shoulder
as to remind you
that you're grown now
and it ain't going nowhere
it'll always be right behind you

Your bills are present
but your income
aint come in
at least not on time
and well.....

Now I'm sipping
on this here drank
'cause at the very least
it offers me
a little bit of getaway
from adulthood hell

Then I throw on this soul music
'cause at the very least
it can empathize with me
and tell me that
it's been here before
and it knows what I'm going through

So one time for the writers
'cause we bleed this shit
onto the page and the screen
sometimes for your enjoyment
other times we just do it
for your well-being
and once more for all those reading
'cause even if you don't write
you still dig where we come from
and appreciate what it is
that we put down
so that makes it alright

Right?

We're Grown, Right? (#29....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-29T10:49:00.000-07:00

Last week I caught up with a friend that I hadnt spoken to in quite some time. The convo went something like this.....

Me : Hey stranger! Where you been?

Her : I been laying low. Got a new boyfriend and all.....

Me : Yeah that'll do it!

Her : I got your msg a while back. Sorry I didnt get back. He goes through my phone sometimes. I had to tell him that you were my cousin.

*insert sound of record coming to a screeching halt*

Anyone see the problem here? Anyone?.....Anyone?........Bueller?

Now homegirl and I have been cool for a few years but never ever have we been on it like that! I could see if we had had some sorta torrid past but...no dice.

I just don't understand the insecurity. We are in our 30's yo! If you have any common sense at all, then you'd take it as a given at this point that your new significant other probably has friends of the opposite sex.

I literally asked homegirl "He goes through your phone? What is he.....12?"

Who does that in an ADULT relationship?

The "wrong....WRONG!" List (#28....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-28T12:02:00.000-07:00

1. "What good do your words do if they cant understand you?" - Erykah Badu " .....& On"

2. Did I mention that this 30 writes in 30 days thing ain't no punk?

3. Glad I participated. Even 'glader' that it's almost over lol

4. Yall know Gary Coleman's wife pretty much killed him, right?

5. Shall we examine the facts?

6. He "fell" down some steps and was "discovered" by his wife, right?

7. She made the decision to take him off life support

8. She sold pics of him near death and after death to the tabloids

9. It don't take Matlock, Columbo or the "Murder She Wrote" chick to put 2 and 2 together....

10. "Ya moms'll set that ass up/ properly gassed up/ Hoodie and masked up/ shit, for that fast buck/ she'll be layin in the bushes to light that ass up" - Notorious B.I.G "10 Crack Commandments"

11. Didn't technically "see" the BET Awards yet but thanks to information highway that is Twitter, I was able to follow along

12. Everyone loves a great comeback/redemption moment and it seems that Chris Brown's Michael Jackson tribute was just that for him

13. I do agree with the sentiment that the tribute should have been a star studded thing orchestrated by Quincy Jones or something though and not made to be about CB like it seemed

14. But it is BET....you can only expect so much

15. .............like DJ Khaled and Luda following up the Prince tribute!?!!??!!?!?

16. Oh and no love for Guru, huh? I digress......

17. They are our peoples and we gotta love them anyways

18. "Sometimes what we say and who we are ain't never been friends." - Angie Writes

19. They found potential signs of life on one of Saturn's moon, eh?

20. Now do you believe me and Stevie when we say we're going back to Saturn?

21. Actually we prolly won't because they prolly gon gentrify that shit next

22. Only a rich asshole politician that has a couple hundred thousand in the bank would suggest actually LOWERING the minimum wage.......Bill Brady

23. Between this prick and the influx of Wal-Marts we're finna see in the city....I just cant

24. Sure all the Wal-Marts will create much needed jobs but Wal-Mart is the devil and treats it's employees like shit

25. It's the equivalent of feeding a starving person a piece of rotten meat. They'll eat it becuz they're starving but that shit is prolly gonna kill 'em in the long run

26. ....or give 'em severe diahrea at the very least. Either way it wont be a good look.

27. "Dear God, I'm trying hard to reach you/ Dear God, I see your face in all I do/ Sometimes, it's so hard to believe it.../ But God, I know you have your reasons" - The Roots "Dear God 2.0"

28. Youtube the song if you haven't heard it. It's amazing.

29. And one time for The Roots becuz they've done it again with their latest album "How I Got Over"

30. Is it bad that I'm kinda indifferent about Robert Byrd?

31. Like I just read on Twitter : much like being linked to child porn, being linked to the KKK just leaves a taint that you cant get off

32. Of course you gotta be PC and repent on that. It ain't like you can go around present day saying "I'd join the KKK again if I could" and expect to keep office

33. Someone wrote yesterday that all the people constantly updating their status on fb during the BET Awards.....yea THAT is what Twitter is for lol

34. Wow @ John Legend going IN on twitter about people making fun of him during the BET Awards

35. "And to the haters, I'm still smarter, more talented, more successful and better looking than you. So fall back. By the way...my hairline has been the same since I was a kid. Can't believe some people are obsessing about it now. I've been famous for 6 years now!!" - John Legend

36. Let that one go John. 'You Can't Win' (c) The Wiz

37. I feel like every list during baseball season I have to mention how much better the White Sox are than the Cubs just because

38. #southside

39. Does it still throw people off when you hashtag outside of Twitter?

40. BA.....Teren is almost 3. Why dont she like me yet? lol

41. My little cousin Jamela didnt like me til she was 5 so I aint worried

42. I hate that your keyboard is broken

43. "Oh Lord/ what did I do to deserve her?/ Heaven knows....Lord knows I'm only human/ Can this be someone truly for me/ or is it a cruel fantasy?" - Rachelle Ferrell & Will Downing "Nothing Has Ever Felt Like This"

44. That song will take you there. Hopefully you know about it already. If not.....you're welcome!

45. *crosses fingers* concerning the Oscar Grant trial

46. Lord knows all hell may very well break loose if that verdict doesnt come back right #riotsaintnothingbutdietsforthesystem

47. I thought my unemployment finally kicking in after 2 months was gon be the proverbial weight lifted off my shoulders

48. *Charlie Murphy voice* wrong! WRONG!

49. Seems I had better hurry up, read my books, write my scripts , and take my ass back to work!

50. "The very existence of flame-throwers proves that some time, somewhere, someone said to themselves, 'You know, I want to set those people over there on fire, but I'm just not close enough to get the job done.'" - George Carlin

Today I'm Reading (#27....30 Writes In 30 Days)

2010-06-27T13:55:00.000-07:00

There are some days
when I don't have anything to say

There are some days
when the words just won't come to me

There are some days
when nothing I seem to write seems right

and on days like those

I read

For Those On The Constant Grind (A Haiku) (#26....30 Writes In 30 Days)

2010-06-26T13:50:00.000-07:00

The grind is tiring.
Sometimes you have to relax.
Just be. It's okay.

10 Memories of Michael Jackson (#25....30 Writes In 30 Days)

2010-06-25T09:24:00.000-07:00

1. I guess foremost and of course most sad is actually having been in LA when he first passed. The homie Dave and I had just landed in LA when we heard that Farrah Fawcett had passed and by time we got to the hotel we started to see tweets about MJ. Then we got to the hotel and watched CNN from there....

2. Since I was in LA, me and a couple friends went to the family compound in Encino to leave flowers. Needless to say that that was surreal.

3. Waiting for "Beat It" and "Say Say Say" to come on Friday Night Videos.

4. Fighting my brother for the "official" Thriller jacket. My mama bought an "official" one that looked like the one he had on in the video, and for some strange reason she bought one that had the colors reversed so it was mostly black with a little red. I wasn't having that one. Talk about knock down and drag out!

5. Being mad when I had to use said "official" Thriller jacket as a compress over my bleeding eye that I got in a rock fight when one of them young punks cheated and threw a brick!!!! Here I was, blood squirting from my head and I distinctly remember hesitating and then being mad when I realized I was gon hafta use my Thriller jacket to keep from bleeding to death lol

6. My mama coming in my room to "check on me" as an 11 yr old b/c I was sitting in the dark with sunglasses on listening to "Man In The Mirror" on repeat

7. Absolutely LOVING the J5 cartoon. Man dont talk to me about no Lucky Charms, no pancakes, no nothing when this was on! Do they have it on dvd yet?

8. Everyone gathering around to watch the world premiere of the "Black Or White" video. Remember it was a huge event (being shown in primetime and all) and all the networks showed it? I also remember being a bit confused at the ending sequence with the destroying the car and all but I figured he's Mike and he made "Thriller" so he can do what he wants lol

9. Loving the defiancy (Is that a word? If not I just made it so) of the "Leave Me Alone" video and realllllllllly wishing that he had said "Stop fucking with me!" in "Scream"

10. Almost busting my face open every day for about 3 months straight while trying to do the "lean forward" move from the "Smooth Criminal" video until discovering that it was special effects. I know I wasnt the only one, right?

Celebrate (#24....30 Writes In 30 Days)

2010-06-24T10:37:00.000-07:00

I really aint got much for yall today. I'm headed out the door. Today is my Great Granny's 95th birthday.....or 96th. That's bad that I cant remember huh? Anyways we're finna go party with her til she gets tired of our asses and our noise and sends us home. But just so no one feels cheated...here's a haiku for you lol

You cant pick them out

They're chosen for you by God

Celebrate your fam

(and yes I realize I may have cheated with 'they're' as one syllable but dammit it's day 24 and I'm pressed for time so cut me some slack dammit!)

The Chi-Town Gun Poem Of Summer '10 (#23....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-23T01:29:00.000-07:00

These Chi-Town shootings
is disturbing me yall
Somebody get me Barack's number
I need to make a call
At first I kinda wanted to believe
it was propaganda
I wasn't gon believe the hype
I was thinking that these tallys were fear tactics
but it seems every Friday night
into Saturday morning someone gets in a fight
that eventually leads to bullets taking flight
and fuck when it gets dark
they are shooting muthafuckas in broad daylight
And I would say they need to
do these gun buybacks weekly
but lately I'm thinking that those are just for show
I wouldn't be surprised if they were
returning the guns to 'em through the back door
See that's called CONSPIRACY
As in the FBI and CIA
Read up on some of the shit they pulled back in the day
I wouldn't even be out my mind to say
that Daley and Weis could be in on it too
The government working to take out the people?
Naw that aint nothing new
Shit...Chairman Fred is dead
becuz of the Feds
Alls I know is this shit is out of hand
and it seems to have come from nowhere
Ain't no gun factories on 63rd or K-Town
so these guns is coming from somewhere
The National Guard talk dun calmed down
but hell they still just might
cuz right now it feels like
someone called the gun truck to come dump
boxes off the back in the middle of the night

For Your Health ('Cause I'm Genuinely Concerned) (#22....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-22T11:04:00.000-07:00

You are gonna die
crazy early
of some stress related illness
cause you cant
let shit go!

I'm not wishing it on you
I'm just stating the obvious
You need to learn to
re-fucking-lax

That stress shit eats up black folk
like we do collard greens
And when you add in the
elements we're among.....

What you think them stress knots
in yo' neck is trying to tell you?

Take another vacation
Smoke a joint
Have a drink
Go watch waterfalls
JUST DO SOMETHING
instead of passing that
shit along to me!

I'm not telling you
to not care at all
I'm just saying
do a better job
of picking and choosing
what and what not to
give a fuck about

This knock down
and drag out shit
about damn near
every little thing
(which usually turns out to not be about shit)
is for the birds

So my loving advice to you
for the sake of you
and all that love you
is to find some
cool, calm, soothing
and relaxing shit
that you like to do
and do it

And please please please
by all means
take a deep breath while you're at it!

About You! (#21....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-21T12:10:00.000-07:00

Give yourself a break. Yes you! You deserve it!

We are all here trying to make a way and pursue our heart's desires. Most of us mean no ill will or harm towards others. In fact, most of us love to see others prosper and even try to help them along the way if possible.

I know I for one am really confident in myself and my abilities. I also know that sometimes I tend to be a bit too hard on myself. I expect so much of me, and put so much pressure on myself that sometimes when I come up short or things don't pan out I get down on myself.

There is a balance to be struck there. It's okay to expect a lot of yourself. And it's also a good thing that you hold yourself accountable, but don't beat yourself up. Be nicer to you.

In the end, all that you have is you. You are responsible for you. So cut yourself some slack.

Right? (A Haiku) (#20....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-20T12:06:00.000-07:00

Daddy issues? Me?
I worked them out on my own
That's not so bad, right?

To Terrence On His Birthday (#19....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-19T13:51:00.000-07:00

Dear Terrence,

I just want you to know that I will never let you live down the fact that I saved your life that day right after the basketball game we went to at Hyde Park high school when we were about 8 and 9.

Don't you remember? They started shooting and I instinctively ran for cover and for some reason you froze like a dear in headlights and started crying in the middle of gunfire? Remember how I risked life and limb and ran back into harms way to come get you and we went to that McDonald's on 66th and Stony to recollect ourselves?

Now I know you'll probably pull that whole 'you saved me from getting hit by that speeding car' bit out your ass. And while that is (somewhat) true, let it be noted that my heroic act came first. So in actuality, your good timing wouldn't even be possible if it weren't for my bravery in the first place.

Anyways, I say all that to say have a Happy Birthday (that was made possible by me....for saving your life.)

Sincerely,

Teej

p.s. I'll save the story of how I usta get whoopings for writing on the walls in crayon b/c I'd come home from pre-school and teach you all the alphabet and numbers that I'd just learned for your next birthday.

Untitled (#18....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-18T01:02:00.000-07:00

I looked up to make sure
she was enjoying what I was doing
Her head was cocked back
with an arch in her back
She held on to my ears
like the safety rails of a rollercoaster
I could taste the adrenaline

I circled the clit with the tip of my tongue
then licked the slit just to have some fun
She tried to run cuz it got too intense
but I wasn't having it
I wrapped my arms around her hips
and caught her rhythm
as she swayed from side to side
then up and down
and up and down
like a bucking bronco
Her climax was near but I wasn't finished with her yet

I stiffened my tongue and pointed it forward
pushing past her lips as far as possible
She dug her nails into my neck in testimonial
Ecstasy was nearing
and her swollen clit was begging for my attention again
I went to lick it but she had other plans
as she grabbed the back of my head
and initiated a feverish grind til euphoria arrived.

When she was done
she gave me a passionately sloppy kiss
while enjoying her taste on my face
then we went back and forth about
which of us would get up
and turn the camera off

I Could Write About Toe Jam and Sea Monkeys.....(#17....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-17T10:30:00.000-07:00

Remember the episode of "Martin" where he was running out of show topics and he said that his last two show topics had been about toe jam and sea monkeys?

Well this 30 writes in 30 days ain't no hoe! And I'm thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis close to writing about toe jam and sea monkeys my damn self!

Its not like there ain't shit to write about but the thing is I've learned that us writers are a neurotic bunch. We have our own little quirks and idiosyncrasies in how we actually put these words together. I admit when Sia first suggested we do this I thought "Oh that's a piece of cake! I can write for 30 straight days. No problem". But alas, here I am at day 17 and Ive got nothing. And that's okay.

Yall just gon have to take this big ol ball of nothing and run with it. Hell I'm at 4 paragraphs already! lol

In the interest of getting to the point.....I say all that to say : I've got nothing for today.

See yall tomorrow.

p.s. Deana don't go! Haiku your way through it but don't go!

The Disconnect (#16....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-16T09:56:00.000-07:00

Ever have a weird/awkward moment with someone and it totally throws the vibe off? Maybe an intended joke doesnt come across well or an action is misinterpreted and/or misconstrued? Well thats where the disconnect comes in.

Now if you are seasoned and mature you understand that these things happen every so often. As humans none of us are perfect and even the most compatible tandem will eventually have a disconnect moment. That's just human nature.

"Let's stick to understanding/and we wont fall" - Common "The Light"

The trick is to recognize it for what it is, verbalize it and move on. Get you budnippers out and nip that shit in the bud. It'll only be awkward for a moment I swear, but a moment of awkwardness is a great trade off for restoring the harmony.

So consider this a PSA. Dont fall victim to the disconnect. It happens from time to time. Just remember these simple steps

1. Acknowledge it.
2. Move on.
3. Live happily ever after.

The End.

Note To Self (#15....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-15T02:26:00.000-07:00

Alright "Teej"....you've maintained for years that all you needed was time. Time to write. Time to concentrate. Time to put it all together. All you needed was time.

Well.....you got time homie. Being fired was probably the best thing that could happen to you. No more long and weird and flip flopping hours at the hotel. You have all the time in the world.

As it currently stands you have a half-finished book to complete and 2 short film scripts and a stage play to write. What exactly are you waiting for? Inspiration? That shit's fleeting. Write anyway!

You know how you love that saying about how you 'used to be the little engine that could, but now you're the big engine that better'? Well what you had better do is get your act together and write. There are no perfect writing conditions. You just do it.

Pretty soon your worst nightmare will come true and you WILL be that guy that was super talented and never did anything with it. I know you feel like you're 22 but you are 32. You'll be 33 in a few months. 33 son!!!!! Again....what the fuck are you waiting on?

Write on Teej.

Write on.

Here. We. Go. AGAIN!!!! (#14....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-14T23:42:00.000-07:00

"See the fucking cop with the flat top/ standing over niggas face down on the black top?/ That shit's GOTTA stop...." Da Lench Mob "Buck The Devil" 1992

I feel like once a damn year I write a blog like this but I suppose it bears repeating : No matter how sweet we think it is (black president and all) they still find a way to remind us that our lives mean absolutely jack shit to them and that they still run this shit!

The fact that the Johannes Mehserle trial has a makeup of 7 whites, 4 latinos and 1 asian is fucking ridiculous!

If you don't know, Mehserle is the white cop who shot and killed unarmed Oscar Grant as he lay on his stomach on an Oakland train platform while being detained on New Year's Day of '09. The trial just got under way and well.....you just read the makeup of the jury.

Apparently there wasn't a black person to be found that could be impartial despite the fact that the trial was moved from Oakland to L.A.. Even the damn alternate jury is devoid of any black people. We obviously don't have the genetic make up to do such tasks.....but white people sure do. When's the last time you've heard of a jury that didn't include at least 1 of them? They are everyone's damn peer it seems.

I dunno yall. I got a bad feeling about this one. Granted that there were dozens of people on the train who took cell phone footage that clearly shows the cop shooting Oscar Grant while he was face down on the ground...the Rodney King shit showed that even video wont guarantee the proper verdict. Sean Bell and Amadou Diallo proved that they can kill us even when we're unarmed so what the fuck?

So anyways....yeah this one oughta be interesting to say the least. Crazy shit is.....if dude is found not guilty and the peoples activate the riot do you think they'll understand finally? Probably not.

I guess we'll have to wait and see. Maybe this time it'll be different. Maybe this time they'll prove that our lives aren't worthless to them.

I wont hold my breath though.

(Peace to She Cat because I basically piggy backed off her posting from last week with this one but this shit really pisses me off and makes me fearful as a black man.)

Conspiracy? (A Haiku) (#13....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-13T13:05:00.000-07:00

Another oil spill?
I'm thinking conspiracy
They do that, ya know?

A Rekindled Love (A Haiku) (#12....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

Rekindling is nice
so don't think I'm crazy but
Haiku.....I love you

Compatibility (A Haiku) (#11....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-11T19:33:00.000-07:00

She loves "love jones" too
and quotes "martin" like I do
She might be the one

New Love/Old Love (A Haiku) (#10....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-10T02:40:00.000-07:00

I do dig new love
but it gets old pretty quick
I want some old love

51 Things I Love (#9....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

the movie "love jones"
writing
applesauce
70's soul music
nikki giovanni poems
stevie wonder songs
"your job is to check coats........CHECK 'EM BITCH!"
how gela understands me
my family
my friends
french fries
hip-hop
kids
chicago
that i'm alive to see a black president
my photo album
being understood
japping out at amoeba in l.a.
dancing in my draws in the living room to a fave song
unconventional ways
myopic books
sex
women
t-shirts
fruit snacks
how the pips steal the show on "midnight train to georgia"
my blackberry
ruby dee & ossie
positive energy
mj's "rock with you"
wine
teren's smile
depositing checks in my account
my ipod
keeping all the pause tapes and mixtapes I made as a teenager
superior media group
my acoustic guitar
black people
"i just wanted to hear your voice" calls
"you just crossed my mind" texts
delivering more than expected
the panthers
madden on playstation
quotes
"their eyes were watching god"
making my mama proud
pancakes
inspiring folks
the summer of '88
love
me

I Aint Heard Of That (#8....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-08T00:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, vibe.com posted a piece by Houston rapper Slim Thug about black women and how they need to "stand by their man more". If you were able to make it through the grammatical hurdles you were treated to the following quips among others :

"It’s hard to trust a Black woman [sometimes] because a lot of Black women’s mind frame is that the man gotta do everything for her."

"They have to understand that successful Black men are kind of extinct. We’re important. It’s hard to find us so Black women have to bow down and let it be known that they gotta start working hard; they gotta start cooking..."

"My girl is Black and White. I guess the half White in her is where she still cooks and do all the shit that I say, so we make it."

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA!

If that aint the most laughable shit I've read in forever......

First of all....WHO THE FUCK THOUGHT IT A GOOD IDEA TO GET SLIM MU'FUCKING THUG'S OPINION ON BLACK WOMEN AND RELATIONSHIPS?!?!?!!?

Really? Slim Thug?!?!? Really? I'd readily listen to Steve Harvey before Slim Thug and I'm thoroughly convinced that Steve Harvey doesn't know what the fuck he's talking about.

So okay...once you get past the fact that it's Slim Thug let's examine what he said a bit.

One of my biggest problems with the article (because I have like 50-leven problems with this fuckshit of an article) is all the generalizations being made. Personally I dont deal with that type of chick so I cant say she doesn't exist. But what I do know is like my girl Cyn said, you are who you surround yourself with. So maybe Mr. Thugga needs to reexamine his standards. Also I've never made it rain in a club (maybe at the record or book store but thats neither here nor there), so I cant relate to that.

Another big problem I had is with the black woman bashing. I swear this shit must be in season and no one told me. So lemme get this straight : the "white side" of his mixed chick is the part that cooks and handles business!??!!? If that aint a WTF moment I dunno what is. Since when does your racial background determine if you are a good partner within a relationship or not?

If I date/marry a black woman all I got to look forward to is her nagging and begging me to buy her expensive shit and she not gon cook at all?

Ehhhh I'll take my chances. Thanks for the heads up though Stayve.

Fin.

p.s. Slim Thug has since repented on his twitter account and said that he was high when he did the piece. (Yea I thought so!)

p.p.s. It has been said (repeatedly) that the reason him and LeToya broke up is because he had a baby with his first cousin while they were together. Yeah you read that right? HE HAD A BABY BY HIS FIRST COUSIN. Shows how damn small his dating pool is!

A VICE Grip (#7....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-07T13:32:00.000-07:00

Hold up!

He died this morning?
She shot who?
My unemployment hearing got pushed back?
Nooooo dont back out on me
I need you now!

*sigh*

Now Im sitting on the back porch
pulling on a Newport
and sipping a deuce deuce of Steel Reserve
despite the fact that I dont smoke squares
and I hate beer

Sometimes the only tool
you can use
to hang on to your sanity
is a VICE grip

Think About It (A Haiku) (#6....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-06T13:29:00.000-07:00

Bad aint always bad
and
Good aint always good

This should be understood.

Take Heed (A Haiku) (#5....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-05T03:29:00.000-07:00

Self sabotage isnt good.

How will you ever get to the best part?

The Fine Art Of STFU! (#4....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-04T12:47:00.000-07:00

It is my solemn belief that people need to learn the fine art of Shutting The Fuck Up (STFU)!

You ever come across someone who is uncomfortable with silence? Not the akward silence when something needs to be said and no one wants to say it. Im talking about the peaceful and tranquil silence like on a bus ride or something. Then some diarhea mouthed fucktard comes and kills the vibe and aint saying shit?

Every waking moment can not be (and shouldnt be) filled with noise.

If you dont have anything of quality to add to a conversation, it's okay to STFU. Dont just say some shit because you feel the need to say some shit. It's cool if you say "Nah I dont really have anything to add to that right now". No one is gonna look at you crazy.....unless of course they happen to be used to you always always butting in to say something and nothing at the same time. But try it anyways!

Sometimes it really is okay to STFU!

I promise.

Just Call Me Dammit! (#3....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

Everyone is all Bobby Digital now. No one seems to respect the analog anymore. I love technology as much as the next person but I still dig the personal interaction. Can you believe that sometimes my crazy ass still calls people just to hear their voice?!?!? Outlandish, right?

Or this other crazy thing....I keep track of people's birthdays (on my own sans the help of facebook) and on their birthday....if I have their number..... I call and wish them a happy birthday! No please...don't commit me to anyone's insane asylum for I have not gone mad. It's just that sometimes I like to communicate directly....person to person like they used to do back in 1988 and shit.

We've gotten to the point where texting and tweeting are now deemed acceptable means of communication and folks dun forgot how to use the damn phone.

Lemme tell ya folks.....contrary to popular belief, my phone is still the very best way to reach me. No, not twitter or facebook or email. The phone! Now mind you, I may screen your call ~~and decide that I dont feel like talking to you at the very moment you call~~ but trust I will get back. And if you happen to leave me a voicemail and tell me what the business is, your chances of getting a speedy return call are vastly improved. Granted that this is all predicated on whether or not I check my voicemail immediately but even if not....the call log will tell me you called (most times).

I know sometimes texting is quicker and when used properly, it can be a timesaver. But really if we go back and forth with more than 3 text exchanges....our lazy asses should just probably pick up the phone and talk directly. Not to mention how sometimes things can get lost in text translation. You fuck around and tell a joke that doesnt go over well and now you gotta call anyways to play Clarissa and explain it all. (Remember that show?)

So remember....dont get caught up too deep in the matrix. Dont let your blackberry or iphone be the sole means in which you reach out to your folks. Dont underestimate the power of calling someone directly. Dont be dude in the picture above.

FUCK Rant 7 (#2....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-02T02:18:00.000-07:00

FUCK the Detroit Police Department for killing Aiyana Jones and trying to suppress the tape
FUCK the juvenile and petty trending topics on Twitter
FUCK Kobe and the Lakers
FUCK BP for this oil spill and their lack of urgency in fixing it
FUCK BP again for consulting (movie director) James Cameron b/c he's supposedly an "aquatic cinema expert". Yall aint got no other experts to call on other than the dude who directed "Avatar"!?!??

FUCK June 8th for not being here already
FUCK a cover letter
FUCK Arizona and their criminally racist illegal alien laws
FUCK Texas for trying to brush over slavery by renaming it "Atlantic Triangular Trade" in their textbooks
FUCK a dude sending another dude to smack up Kat Stacks on his behalf. I mean I know she's wack but...really? You send another man to beat up a woman for you? Aint you got no girl cousins to handle that for you since you need it handled so bad?

FUCK the fact that Waka Flocka is winning right now
FUCK that someone is finna call me a hater for that last line
"FUCK this rap shit. I listen to classical!" - Baatin
FUCK it supposedly getting 'greater later'. I want it now dammit!
FUCK dude at the Beezy for firing me on some bs then trying to deny my unemployment and also trying to deny me the little monies rightfully owed to me on my last check

FUCK surviving 2 tours of duty in Iraq only to come back home and be killed on King Dr.
FUCK Israel attacking the Freedom Flotilla that was carrying food and medical supplies
FUCK the club. Let's mobilize and fundraise
FUCK VH1's Sunday night lineup of fuckery
FUCK Glenn Beck for being an asshole and a hypocrite and even mentioning Malia's name in his criticism of President Obama. What the hell does an 11 yr old have to do with your disagreement with the President anyways?

FUCK having illusions of grandeur and not having anyone there to bring you back to reality
FUCK Jon Burge. I hope they throw his stank ass under the jail
FUCK gettting party invites on facebook from people Im not even "friends" with! How does THAT work?!?!?
FUCK people who just finished smoking then wanna come and talk to you in close proximity with that God awful "just smoked" stench on them
FUCK these propoganda ass/scare tactic news reports like "20 people shot over a 9 hour period" in Chicago

It All Started With Six Words (#1....30 Writes in 30 Days)

2010-06-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

She said "‘consciousness’ doesn’t excuse you from dopeness"
I paused and pondered
"Come again?"
She repeated "‘consciousness’ doesn’t excuse you from dopeness"
then added "the two arent exclusive, ya know?"
I chuckled
She continued "and if you think about it....
the dopest people are usually the ones that are conscious becuz to be aware IS dope"
I sat back and gazed at her
She knowingly returned my gaze and included a smirk for good measure
Sista was dope
and she knew it
After a while I leaned back in and asked "so where do we go from here?"
With all the confidence in the world she leaned in and offered
"wherever we want, baby"

30 Writes in 30 Days

2010-05-31T02:02:00.000-07:00

A group of facebook friends and I have decided to flex our artistic muscle and commit to writing 30 pieces (of anything) in 30 days.

All that bitching and moaning about I cant write shit is over lol. I HAVE to make sure that I write something for the next 30 days. Everyone else started on May 26th but being the complusive obsessive fucktard I am....I decided I'd wait to June 1st to get started b/c well....Im a complusive obsessive fucktard.

So here goes nothing.....

As Told To Me By A Friend.....(Evolution/Revolution)

2010-05-26T01:04:00.000-07:00

"So happy you got fired. When it comes to my artist friends being in 9 to 5's they despise, I like to tell them it's about revolution, not evolution. We keep waiting for things to change, evolution. But without Revolution, that change could take forever. Take this time to make your situation better!"

Makes all the sense in the world. Thanks Sant!

(P.S. I will finish the damn book now!)

Life In Four Bottles

2010-05-21T15:59:00.001-07:00

Peace to my girl Sivi who passed this along to me in one of her famous email forwards.

God bless that 3rd bottle. Imma be on that bitch til it's time for the 4th and even while Im on the 4th.

Spoken like a true alky, right?

Aiyana Jones

2010-05-19T00:00:00.000-07:00

"It's hard to be a spiritual being when shit is shaking what you believe in" - Talib Kweli "Respiration"

While taping an episode of "The First 48", Detroit police raid the wrong goddamn house and shoot & kill a 7 year old girl asleep on the couch. Now (not surprisingly) they are trying to suppress the video footage.

I swear they keep giving us reminders that no matter how much this country "progresses", shit will never be sweet! They just don't value our lives.

God bless Aiyana and her family.

Read the whole story here.

Sign the petition to have the video released here.

The "Ordinary Pain" List

2010-05-13T22:11:00.000-07:00

1. "We all know sometimes life's hates and troubles/ can make you wish you were born in another time and space/ But you can bet your life times that and twice its double/ that God knew exactly where she wanted you to be place..." - Stevie Wonder "As"

2. If I cant write shit else right now, I can list my ass off so here goes nothing......

3. Thanks to Angie and Nyree who kept pushing me to write something....anything.

4. Also shouts out to Les, Lor, Kristin and Andrea who got the listing ball rolling again with our email chain.

5. Hold on yall....it's only a storm. This too shall pass.

6. It's just an ordinary pain (c) Stevie

7. This adulthood shit though!?!?!.......*whew*........I tell you!

8. Call me crazy....but I do kinda miss the myspace hey day

9. Something about it wasn't as wide open and out of control as this twitter/facebook age

10. "(Stevie Wonder's) "Songs in the Key of Life" is a healing Masterwork." - dream hampton

11. If you don't have a copy of "Songs In The Key Of Life" I suggest you get one. It really has answers to just about all of life's problems. Seriously it does!

11. Maybe when I officially become a cool writer type I'll go ahead and switch my name to all lower cases. Only the coolest scribes (i.e. bell hooks and dream hampton) do that.

12. Anyone especially surprised that BP has been lying to us this whole time about the intensity of the oil spill? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?

13. Nowadays I have a 'wait and see' attitude about most things. Nothing is ever what they initially say it is.

14. Sometimes I think I have such an unorthodox view of death. It's really not a sad occasion to me. Hard to explain. Definitely no means to jump for joy but I'm not overwhelmed with sadness most times

15. The soul remains alive. I truly believe that just the physical shell expires. The spirit of that person is still there.

16. I have a great-uncle hanging on by a thread right now and I'm dreading sitting through a sad sad funeral.

17. The whole viewing of the body thing I never do. Funerals in general are pretty damn morbid to me.

18. "Hard to be a spiritual being when shit is shaking what you believe in" - Talib Kweli "Respiration"

19. So in case you missed the memo : I GOT FIRED FROM THE HOTEL BEEZY after 6 1/2 years......

20. ......and no it wasn't (as we all thought it would be) for finally hauling off and cussing out a dumb guest

21. Instead I got fired for being late when I told the mgr a month prior to the actual day that I would be late on this particular day b/c I was working a tv production

22. Oh and I also got in trouble for not speaking with a mgr the day of (when I called in to inform them (again) that I would be late that day)......even though there was no manager there when I called

23. To keep it completely 100 though....dude did me a favor by firing me. I didn't need to be there anymore. That place was completely sucking the soul out of me.

24. I'll miss the consistent money though.

25. I wonder why said ex-manager obviously hated me so much as to try to deny me the little money owed to me on my last check and block my unemployment?

26. What kinda unwarranted kick in the nuts is that? I mean it's not like when he fired me I cussed him out, threatened his life and tore the hotel up or anything. I didn't even get "ethnic" or give my speech on who was cool and who could kiss the center of my ass. I was pretty calm if you ask me.

27. No worries though. Im #ontothenext and living my life now. Thanks Mr. Jimenez!

28. ".....I don't ever wanna go back there/ So I wont be taking no days off/ 'til my spaceship takes off. BLAH!" - Consequence "Spaceship"

29. Superior Media Group is the spaceship that I will be making sure takes off btw.....in case you ain't know

30. If I can help it at all....I'm done working FOR people. I don't do well with authority much.

31. Plus I have sooooo many inspiring friends doing their own thing. We are 'Revolutionary Entrepreneurs' for real!

32. The Cavs really disappointed me. I thought this was their year. LeBron doesn't seem to have that killer instinct yet

33. My dude if you're the best player/leader of your team AND league MVP.....if yall gon lose Imma need you take over the game at some point. I know you wanna get your teammates involved and not be accused of being selfish, but at certain times Mr. MVP you gotta throw the team on your back and THUG your way through close games. Mike did it. Kobe does it. Where you at 'Bron?

34. It's gon be an interesting off-season to say the least with LeBron, D-Wade, Melo, Chris Bosh, etc. all free to roam

35. "You just have to write, or give up and forget about it!" - Anonymous

36. I swear I need to write this on post-it notes and hang it all over my place

37. And with that you can consider my blog back bishes!!!!!

38. Now if I can only keep up with that proclamation......that's like the 50-leventh time I dun said that

39. So wait.......Gucci Mane had a post-release from jail news conference? Really?!?!?!?

40. Like what in the mildly retarded hell do you have to talk about dude?

41. What....you thought you was a political prisoner or something?

42. If you don't take your monkey (looking) ass on and make some more mush mouth raps......

43. "Yes I got some candy kisses for your lips/ Yes I got some honey suckle chocolate dripping kisses full of love for you" - Stevie Wonder "Do I Do"

44. The fact that we went back and forth strictly speaking in Stevie song titles.......lol

45. Happy 60th Stevland!

46. Don't forget the MOVE house bombing in Philly 5/13/85

47. I love Mary J.....but her starring in a Nina Simone biopic concerns me. *crosses fingers*

48. Then again when I got word that Common was the lead in this "Just Wright" movie I was concerned as well......(and yall bet not let me feel like I was the only one)....but thankfully all the feedback I've heard thus far suggests that it's not the worst movie ever made so.....

49. Enjoy the fuckery of "Cook Dem Gritz" : http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/367acafbd5/code-f-i-cook-dem-gritz-bull-official-video

50. "I hate writing. I love having written." - Dorothy Parker

Today Is 5/13/10

2010-05-13T12:52:00.000-07:00

Today is the 60th birthday of my favorite musician of all-time, Stevie Wonder! If you have just a pinch, ounce, and smidgen of soul within you, you have to have a favorite Stevie song. If anyone tells me that they dont do I will be forced to thrash you. Seriously.

Today is also the 25th anniversary of MOVE house bombing in Philly.

Sort of a bittersweet day to say the least.

P.S. How you them apples 'ree?

Quote I Like 4/11/10

2010-04-11T15:00:00.000-07:00

"Sometimes when I'm stuck I go to an office building, ride the elevator and stare at the lawyers, stock brokers, and accountants in their power suits. Just the thought of having to wear pantyhose all day and work in a building where I can't open the windows usually makes me grateful to come home and write. If that doesn't work, I forbid myself to write for a week. The subconscious doesn't like being told what to do and it frequently becomes inventive after an enforced vacation. Other times, I put aside what I'm blocked on and work on something else. Shopping, of course, helps." - Margo Kaufman

Misc. Blog 7

2010-04-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

I cant write for shit.

*le sigh* I mean obviously there are things to write about b/c the world dont stop moving but I've just not found the inspiration to write about them.

*shrug*

Oh well.....Im an artist. We can be as flaky as we want.

I did decide though that my blog will look different and maybe not be so personal and "all about me"-ish. I'll blog here and there about various shit. You'll see what I mean in time I guess.

Be blessed yall,

Teej

Misc. Blog 6

2010-03-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

I really dont know what my problem is. I act as if I've forgotten how to blog. *talks to self* "It's not that hard Teej. You log on. You write what you feel. You click 'publish post' and waalaa...you've blogged!"

Maybe I've gotten lazy. Actually I've always been a lazy writer. So maybe the drought is just a byproduct of said laziness. Either way it goes I feel guilty about not writing more on this here blog of mine. Maybe I will try something new in the way that I blog. I have lots of friends who either Im just discovering their blog OR who've just started blogging. I see ya Sweet Tee! Maybe I've needed them to light a fire under my ass.

I would say they have given me the definitive push needed and that I will definitely be blogging more but I think I said that in Misc. Blog 5. So with that said.....

"Im done playing/ Im done saying that Im done playing" - Marshall Mathers

Be blessed yall.

Teej

The "Later For Cochise!" List

2010-02-15T01:26:00.000-08:00

1. "....trying to make a dollar out of 15 cents/ It's hard to be legit AND STILL pay the rent/....It's gonna take the man in me to concur this insanity/It seems the rain'll never let up/ I try to keep my head up/ and still keep from getting wet up/ You know it's funny when it rains it pours...." - 2Pac "Keep Ya Head Up"

2. Yo word to Shaneen....nobody spits it like 'Pac spat it!

3. That one was for all my peeps currently going through it at the moment. Sometimes life can really do a number on you

4. It's just a valley though. Hold on. Be strong yall. This too shall pass.

5. Oh and......hope yall had a Happy Valentine's Day I guess......*shrug*

6. I listened to alllll the hardcore and gangsta rap I could find on Valentine's Day lol

7. The fact that I love Love is no secret. But at the moment...I'm pretty pissed at it so... "Later for Cochise!"

8. That was a "Cooley High" reference for you young'ins.

9. ".....feeling insecure/ Love has got me sore/ I dont want no more" - Erykah Badu "Green Eyes"

10. "Love is for the brave. Also, for the insane. Mostly the insane." - Jean Grae

11. So after all that bitching I just did.....Minnie Riperton's "Lover and Friend" just came on and instantly I feel better about it all

12. What will be will be I suppose.....but in the meantime I'd better stock up on my supply of big boy underwear b/c I'm pretty damn sure I'll be needing LOTS of them lol

13. This list feels maaaaad melancholy thus far....you may have to check back later for 'Happy Teej'. I think 'Somewhat Solemn and Reflective Teej' is running this one here

14. Any real friend of mine would see to it that I'm no longer allowed access to amazon.com or ebay

15. The amount of money I've spent recently buying CD's and books.......I should be ashamed

16. But it was CD's and books so.....no I'm not ashamed

17. Could this quote hit me in the head any harder......?

18. "They say if you love something, you've got to let it go/ And if it comes back, then it means so much more/ But if it never does, at least you will know/ that it was something you had to go through to grow" - Heather Headley "In My Mind"

19. Dope song....still kinda stalkerish though

20. Slowly but surely.....I think I'm turning into some sorta artsy recluse

21. Now if it gets to the point where I forsake all things electronic..........#imjustsaying

22. Can you believe that the Republicans and Conservatives are trying to make the case that the recent winter storms are proof that Global Warming/Climate Change is NOT real b/c *gasp*......it snowed really badly.....in February!?!?!?!?

23. Nevermind the fact that extreme weather is a tale tell sign of the climate change and the such. *hello....is this thing on?!!?!* All these devastating hurricanes, earthquakes and all aint by coincidence

24. Sometimes I wonder if these fools live in the same world/society/country that we do.

25. Mommy don't you worry. You'll be fine. We'll see to it.

26. This grown man business aint for the timid, frail, or weak-minded.....at all!

27. "Fly like a bird/Take to the sky/I need you now Lord/Carry me high/Don't let the world break me tonight/I need the strength of you by my side/Sometimes this life can be so cold/I pray you'll come and carry me home/Keep your head to the sky/With God's love you'll survive..." - Mariah Carey "Fly Like A Bird"

28. You know how you'd say 'such and such' is 'giving me life'?

29. Well "Fly Like A Bird" is LITERALLY giving me life and helping me to keep it all together mentally

30. Speaking of MC.....Everytime I hear a "Baby I want you back" song like "We Belong Together"...all I can hear is dude pleading his case for her. *shudders*

31. Oh and.....Mariah's song with Nikki has grown on me. I like Nikki's quirky lil style. #dontjudgeme

32. *whispers* I think I'm a Nikki Minaj fan......dont tell nobody tho, k? Again... #dontjudgeme

33. In case you ain't know and/or didn't get the memo....the new Sade and Corinne Bailey Rae albums are THE BUSINESS!

34. "...sometimes these feelings can be so misleading /She turns and says "Are you alright?"/ I said "I must be fine cause my heart's still beating" - The White Stripes "Fell In Love With A Girl"

35. "Can't keep away from the girl/ These two sides of my brain need to have a meeting/Can't think of anything to do/My left brain knows that all love is fleeting...." - The White Stripes "Fell In Love With A Girl"

36. Its so much easier to love than to hate. Hate takes a whole lot of energy and is draining upon the soul and spirit

37. And with that said I will embrace the fact that I am indeed a lover and not so much a fighter ~~(at least not in that regard. Now fuck with me if you wanna and see if you dont get fucked up)~~ but I digress.....

38. Lemme find out that it genuinely throws the womenfolk for a loop when a guy does that whole "say exactly what he thinks/feels" thing

39. Dear God....dont let the whole "Tainted Love" thing be more common than I originally thought!

40. I was on the fence about this Usher "Daddy's Home" song...then I heard a version with Piles on it and needless to say......I fell the fuck off that fence.

41. Piles is 99% unbearable.....the 1% bearable factor is generally reserved for DJ Khaled posse cuts b/c he usually only has like 8 bars

42. Dear John Mayer.....I forgive you. For one I know how yall tend to get a lil too comfortable after a while once you've been "embraced". And two.....I knoooooow you had to be high as shit b/c you were all over the place and not making sense at all.

43. "Sometimes I meet the 40 yr old me & say 'What do I do?' & the 40 yr old me says 'Dont do every interview. Go to the zoo instead'" -John Mayer

44. If you've yet to read the whole article, be my guest, and tell me if dont sound like son "chiefed a whole 'o' of dat presidential" (c) Big Boi

45. Learn the power of the word 'No' yall. I implore you. You'll save yourself a lot of stress and strife in the future....

46. $1500.00 is about to be my pricetag for NOT saying 'No' when I shoulda.....and that's me getting off EASY!

47. It seems as though people really like "For Lovers Trying Repeatedly"

48. Welp....that's the last one yall asses will get for free (I think!)

49. Coming Soon : "When I Die...They'll Read This And Say A Genius Wrote It"

50. "Love someone and mean it. Even if it's difficult. Especially then." - Unknown

For Lovers Repeatedly Trying

2010-02-08T16:23:00.000-08:00

Because no one ever said it would be easy
and you sure as hell didnt expect it to be this hard

My God!

You love them.
They love you back
and thats that.

Pretty simple stuff one would think, but no.

If you factor in
the baggage
the hang ups
the near misses
the war wounds that have yet to heal
the bad timing
the inexperience
the catastrophic karma
(yours or theirs)
and just having downright shitty luck

One of lesser faith would be tempted to throw in the towel
become asexual
and "focus on my career"

Meanwhile those of us
that know it's a marathon
and not a sprint
will pick ourselves up
dust ourselves off
give it one good deep sigh
and try just once more

Because we're lovers

and lovers

love

Its what we do.

Introducing Dave It Fwd

2010-02-01T16:39:00.000-08:00

The homie D'Leo has stepped his blog game up 'a hundred thousand trillion' and me being the competitive person that I am, has in turn, decided to do the same.

This is very similar to how when Puff came out with the "Cant Nobody Hold Me Down" video and that shit was off the chain, then it was time to do Biggie's "Hypnotize" video and he was like "Yo just make sure my shit is as hot as Puff's!".

So yeah that about sums it up. Imma have to redesign my shit.

Check out the homie at htt p://www.daveitfwd.net/

President Obama Walks Into The Lion's Den

2010-01-31T14:42:00.000-08:00

Two days after his State of the Union address, ~~which in part was to tell everybody "chill the fuck out. I got this!"~~ President Obama went to the annual Republican House of Representatives retreat to square off with them 141 on 1.

That's right! He went into a room full of republicans by himself and let them take their best shots at him. Answered all their questions on health care, jobs, and terrorism among other things and put 'em all in check.

You think George Bush woulda had the balls to do that?

Lock himself in a room full of Democrats (with live TV cameras nonetheless!!! Oh yes President Obama INSISTED that they do this live on TV!!!!), and let them fire away and quiz him? Not even if Jesus had instructed him to would he have had done it.

For almost 90 minutes, President Obama, visibly (and understandably) a lil testy went back and forth with the Republicans adding at one point, "We've got to be careful about what we say about each other sometimes, because it boxes us in in ways that makes it difficult for us to work together because our constituents start believing us," Obama said. "So just a tone of civility instead of slash-and-burn would be helpful."

I'm telling yall. This man is doing politics in a whole new way these people aint never even thought of it. When you come and change the game like this you will meet resistance. They just are not ready.

Our President is fly yall.

Who The F#ck Does Wyclef Think He Is?!?!

2010-01-16T20:02:00.000-08:00

In the wake of the tragic earthquake in Haiti, Wyclef Jean didnt wait for anyone else. He didnt sit on his thumbs and 'hope' for things to get better. He got the fuck up immediately and went down there to help. Everyone knows 'clef is Haitian and has championed many causes relating to Haiti waaaaay before the 'quake hit.

So in lieu of donating to Red Cross, I, like many others felt as if our precious dollars would do better with a more grassroots organization. Personally I felt like the big boys Red Cross and FEMA fumbled the ball with Katrina so I wasnt all that enthused about donating to them this time. Wyclef hits up his twitter fam and encourages folks to donate to his Yele organization and whattya know? Within hours he's raised HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS of dollars. Well the sheer gall of this damn rapper to mobilze people and garner this kinda financial support on his own without some big corporation to help! Who the fuck does he think he is?!?!?!?

So now here comes The Smoking Gun with their "report" on some questionable goings ons with 'clef's Yele's Organization. Okay that's cool. I aint believing that hype but can they investigate FEMA and Red Cross with the contributions made in the wake of Hurricane Katrina and then get back to us?

Here's Wyclef's response :
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The "Arrogant, Pompous and Cocky" List

2010-01-04T00:50:00.000-08:00

1. "I'm supposed to be arrogant, pompous and cocky/ You oughta thank God you finally got me/ you ungrateful fucks!" - B-Roc

2. Clearly I've tossed 'modesty' aside for the moment

3. Sometimes I do believe you need to indulge in some ol Nikki Giovanni "Ego Tripping" shit

4. I said it before and it bears repeating : I'm the most modest person ever......but in my head? Oh in my head I'm conceited as shit!

5. You like how I balance modesty and conceit so easily, eh?

6. Tis all a defense mechanism really

7. You can give someone your best advice but at the end of the day....they must walk their own path

8. All you can really do after that is support them as best you can

9. Honestly I'm pretty damn sick about it all but I have to put on my big boy underwear and forge ahead

10. "I cant let you know it/ Pride wont let me show it/ Pretend to be heroic/ That's just one to grow with/ but deep inside a nigga so sick....." - Jay-Z "Song Cry"

11. And this whole "Jay-Z sold his soul to the devil and is satan/the anti-Christ" thing?.......Eh....Not so much

12. I'm all for a good conspiracy theory but I think it all likkle bit much

13. #kanyeshrug

14. Shouts out to Tiff aka @HoneyBiscuits for finally getting down with the twitter get down. And Shaneen and Tam for (possibly) getting back in the swing of things ;)

15. Anyone else glad that the (Bad News) Bears' season has finally been put to rest?

16. Talk about a freggin let down......but with that said....I think with some gelling and a couple key changes (ie. Ron Turner being shown the permanent way out of Chicago, and Lovie falling back on calling the defensive plays) we might could have something next year

17. Before I put my modesty hat back on let me just add..........

18. "No great genius has ever existed without some touch of madness" - Aristotle

19. I may have forgotten to mention this but : I determined some time ago that I am actually a genius

20. MENSA cant tell me shit

21. Hey if I dont believe in my own greatness who the hell will?

22. Okay I think I'm done with my ego schtick now

23. See Les? Your lists are very do-able here. Now get started!

24. The news is literally becoming unbearable to watch. I have to watch in 10 day increments

25. Between mugs trying to blow planes up by setting their drawers on fire, innocent old men being shot in the face, and another student from Fenger being gunned down......

26. *le sigh*

27. "How you gonna have me jealous of myself??? That's some REAL pimpin! Talk about playing with my emotions..." - @AngieWrites

28. #sixwordstories : Ang you really are a Godsend ;)

29. Sorry to put you on blast-ation but the world needs to know about you lol

30. Congratulations on your engagement Kia

31. ......and another one for Black Love!

32. Chellz said I write about Love an awful lot

33. All I could do was chuckle b/c she's right and I have no excuse

34. I really dont want an excuse either.

35. #sixwordideas : "Find Heaven in yourself and God" - Common

36. Speaking of finding God....if you haven't checked out the book "The Shack" it's a must read

37. On the advice of a good friend I'm reading it now and it's eye-opening to say the least

38. Are yall watching the show "Jacksons : Family Dynasty" on A&E?

39. Jermaine! Jermaine! Jermaine! I wanna see him and Tito box so bad so that Tito can whoop his ass good!

40. How do they all fit in the room with him and his ego?

41. And the hair? It's like he uses a combo of crisco, motor oil, vaseline, fatback & blue magic!

42. "If someone puts up a wall it's NOT your job to break through it. Thieves break in. Guests are INVITED in." - K. Mcllwaine

43. "People are unrealistic, illogical and self-centered. Love them anyway" - Mother Theresa

44. They say true strength is keeping it together when everyone would understand if you fell apart

45. #fuckshit

46. We were THIS close to not having to take Rush Limbaugh into 2010 with us. Oh well......

47. Happy New Year btw. Here's to a prosperous 2010 and beyond

48. At 11:55pm I put Stevie's "As' on repeat so it was the last song of '09 I heard and the first song of 2010. Then I put on Michael's "Rock With You" and Floetry's "SupaStar" and danced in my drawers in my bedroom

49. Kinda corny, huh? I swear I loved every minute of it

50. "True love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked." - Erich Segal

Unconditional Love Vs. Outright Stupidity (A Scenario)

2009-12-23T23:10:00.000-08:00

What's the difference between loving someone unconditionally and being outright stupid in regards to the person you love. How closely are they related?

A girl is in love with her male best friend. The guy sorta knows it but...ehhhhhh....he's not really there. He loves her but not quite in the same way. She holds out hope because no one makes her feel like him. She has plenty other suitors but she's only checking for him. In their alone moments, even though they arent intimate, she senses something there. Almost everyone around them knows she's crazy about him and she's not shy in admitting to anyone who asks. She watches him go in and out of relationships hoping he'll snap out of it one day and realize she is who he needs. She's made up her mind that she believes in this love that much that she'll stick around until it's made painfully clear that she's wasting her time....and she's hella-stubborn lol. It's essentially Brandy's "Have You Ever?" played out in real life. We've all seen this story like 50-leven times, right? Unconditional Love or Outright Stupidity?

The Trouble With Love

2009-12-13T18:53:00.000-08:00

So while watching "Love Actually" for the eleventy millionth time.....I took note of this song. I just knew it was Mariah singing. Then I got to the end of the movie and the video was a bonus feature. Needless to say that both my manliness and I were shocked to discovered we were jammin to mu'fucking KELLY CLARKSON! After reviewing the man-law handbook I found a small loophole in Chapter 6, Section 4-40c that allowed me to remain a man indeed. Tell me she don't sound like "Vision of Love" Mariah on this shit. Anyways say what you will.....this song is the shit. The lyrics are on point. I'll gladly accept my #latepass

Misc. Blog 5

2009-12-07T02:59:00.000-08:00

How about in looking shit over I just realized that I only wrote one blog in all of October, and one blog in all of November! Wow....that's a new all-time low.

I wanna say that this here "Misc. Blog 5" is my 489th blog ever on this blogspot. I think I've decided that I wanna have 500 post before the year is over. Now mind you Im very aware of the fact that I will not make that goal if I keep posting at the clip in which I've been posting. However, I feel like this 2 blogs inside 20 mins. shit is a good start, wouldnt you say? Plus I have a couple blogs in my drafts folder here that I need to get back to.

So while it's a bit too early to tell Im gonna call it anyways......"I THINK I GOT MY MOJO BACK BITCHES!!!!"

Be blessed yall.

Teej

PS. How Im call yall bitches, then say be blessed? lol So very contradictory of I.

Love > Money

2009-12-07T02:41:00.000-08:00

So I have this crazy idea in my head, right? You ready for this?

Okay so the crazy idea in my head is that I will be able to prosper and realize my full potential career-wise AFTER I find love. Crazy, right?

What I'm coming to find out about myself is that I value love more than anything else in this whole wide world. The love of my family and friends means everything to me. But the one thing I'm missing love-wise is that "special love" between a man and a woman. You know....that "SPECIAL" love when yall get to do it and stuff. Yeah that love.

Now while I'm well familiar with the ever popular mantra of "Money over bitches", and the always classic "Fuck bitches. Get money", and "even 50's slept-on musing of "you hustlin' backwards if you chasin' a bitch, Stupid!/ Chase the paper, they come with the shit", I just never bought it. Sounded good, but didn't feel right. I like money but it comes second to love for me. Besides....you don't take the lyrics in rap music seriously, do you? I sure as hell don't. I'm a leader, not a follower. No sir.....not The Teej. I goes my own lane. And to me it would be waaaay sweeter if I got love then the money.

Billy Dee had said that "Success is nothing without someone you love to share it with." Dammit ain't that the gospel? I mean....I could hit my number tomorrow and be the richest man in the world by next Thursday but what the fuck fun would that be w/o a special someone to take along on the ride? Any chick that I meet after the fact will get the *side eye* because I couldn't be too sure if homegirl is here for me or the dough.

But if I lock my baby in BEFORE it all then I'd know, ya know? Besides...I really have tunnel vision about us building an empire TOGETHER!

Now that would be the sweetest!

PS. Please don't think I'm sitting on my ass and twiddling my thumbs career-wise whilst I wait on love. Trust that I'm making moves. I just think it's something to be said for having someone there and having your back as you take on the world TOGETHER.

The "Yall Dont Really Know Me...." List

2009-11-11T01:22:00.000-08:00

1. "You prolly think....I sling dick to these hoes like nunchucks/Well, you can think what you want but/ I think you've been watching too much BET Uncut/ You need to get real and check out my real life/ I ain't a tip-drill, don't care what it smell like.......Yall dont really know me like you think you know me" - Drake f/ Phonte & Elzhi "Think Good Thoughts"

2. This song has been on constant rotation for a minute now

3. Peeps have asked why I keep posting "Yall dont really know me like you think you know me" all over the place

4. Welp...the short answer is I'm feeling misunderstood. Let the facebook pics tell it all I do is go out and surround myself with a bunch of gorgeous women....

5. ....when the truth is Im actually a homebody and it's like the same 7 women are in all the pics lol and they are my good friends and nothing more so obviously.....

6. "Yall dont really know me like you think you know me" lol

7. *steps down from narcissistic soapbox*

8. Still not really sure how/why John Allen Muhammad AKA The DC Sniper got excuted so fast, yet Charles Manson is still chillin on death row

9. There's just something VERY "interesting" about that lil tidbit. Im just sayin......

10. ".....confusion can give way to doubt/ And there are times when I fall short of what I say...Im all about/but at your best, you are love/ You're a positive motivating force within my life" - Isley Bros. "(At Your Best) You Are Love"

11. Most Favorite....I fell short of what I previously said and for that I apologize.

12. You know that above all I am most definitely for you and only want to improve upon your quality of life, and not take away from it or add stress to it

13. .....and you also know (by now) that I can be a bit extra and dramatic with a habit of prematurely jumping off the hypothetical cliff....so work with me, k?

14. Tis a hazard of me caring about you. Remember : Scorpio = Passion

15. See! I am soooo not perfect......I only play perfect on social networking sites lolololol

16. I swear I be in "(these blogs) talking like it's just you and me"

17. Relax. Relate. Release AKA 'Blow that shit out!'

18. "Now that it's all over, what did you really do yesterday that's worth mentioning?" - Coleman Cox

19. Im not sure what language this is that my bbm spellcheck speaks but Ive never seen it before

20. When I typed the word "really" and it suggested that I meant "reales" or "realza"..........the fuck?!?!?

21. Alls Im saying if you're considering getting the H1NI vaccination shot is this.......

22. Presently this country cures for profit. So the same people who give you the shot are the same people that get paid if you're sick. Capiche'?

23. What's it say if the makers of the vaccine refuse to take it them damnselves?

24. Hello! Is this thing on?!?!?

25. I hate to sound like a C-O-N-spriacy theorist but Im just saying!

26. Dear Sammy Sosa : Skin rejuvenation my ass! Get your life together homie!

27. And what about the new eye color, son? Whats that? Retina rejuventaion!?!?!?!?

28. "You know that's right/ You aint white/ So quit holding ya ass tight/ 'cause you cant pass/ So why you keep trying to pass?/ Wit'cha black ass!" - Ice Cube "Be True To The Game"

29. Shouts out to Dave for FINALLY coming up with the ever elusive 8 min remix of Jodeci's "Forever My Lady" thats he's been telling me about in all the damn near 15 years I've known him

30. I wouldnt be surprised if this fool found time to mix down his own damn version to save face but I digress lol

31. Are there really any words to be said about The Bears right now?

32. 5 interceptions Cutler? And Ron Turner....dont let me catch yo punk ass in the street!

33. Normally I'd never rejoice that anyone is going to jail......

34. ....but in Gucci Mane's case Imma make an exception *does the happy dance*

35. ".......*sigh* and so we wait. Waiting for the next great rapper is almost like waiting for Jesus" - @chiggady

36. "10 pennies won't ever be a dime. Pass THAT along!" - Kai

37. I've decided that the biggest lesson Ive learned in all of '09 is that being nice is some bullshit

38. Im STILL trying to crawl my way out of a hole I dug for myself 2 plus years ago in the name of being "nice" to trife ass people

39. Or maybe singling out "nice" is a bit much......

40. We'll just say I need to practice the power of 'NO' alot more. My apologies in advance if my practicing the power of 'NO' makes me come off as a asshole at some point in time.

41. This abortion stipulation added onto the proposed health care bill is a slippery slope and I just dont like it

42. Damn you Bart Stupak!

43. "I personally figure/ that my Harvard style/ is too deep for you Nursery niggas!" - Lord Finesse

44. You may file that one under #feelingmyself

45. In reading "The 5 Love Languages" I've discovered that my primary love language is "Words of Affirmation"

46. Check out the 5 love languages and see if you can figure what your language is

47. I swear Im a student of this Love shit

48. What is life other love with various other shit mixed in?

49. On with the lesson we go! Mr. Allen it's on you. Take us home......

50. "To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down....." - Woody Allen

Misc. Blog 4

2009-10-29T03:08:00.000-07:00

So if we were not to count my "goodbye" post on inchicity from 10/2.....Ive pretty much not written a blog for the whole month of October? Wowwwwwww!

I cant even begin to tell you why this is so. It aint like the world has stopped revolving around the sun. It aint like there aint been enough shit happening in the news. I, for whatever reason(s) just havent been moved to write shit.

Maybe becuz I've been on some "treading water" shit for the last couple months I've been too preoccupied to write. At least with inchicity I was SUPPOSED to post every Friday. But now that that's over I can wallow in my valley so to speak. Plus to keep it 100, the last couple months I really struggled to write shit for them.

So anyways....now that Im pretty close to the shore, and I wont have to tread water any longer, maybe I can get back into the swing of things. Lord knows there's enough on my mind. I just need to get it all out.

PS. Did I mention that Im effectively BACK on the overnights 2 twice a week? If anything that definitely lends itself to me writing more. We'll see I guess.....

Be blessed yall.

Teej

We Can Get Deeper (What We Talkin' About?)

2009-09-25T22:42:00.000-07:00

“What we talkin’ bout real shit or we talkin’ bout rhymes?
You talkin’ bout millions or you talking’ bout mine?
What we talkin’ bout? Cuz I ain’t got time
For what people be talkin’ bout all the time
What we talkin’ bout fiction or we talkin bout fact?
You talkin’ bout fiction? Hold up pardon my back
…..I ain’t talkin’ bout profit. I’m talkin’ bout pain.
I’m talkin’ bout despair. I’m talkin’ bout shame.
I ain’t talkin’ bout gossip….I’m talkin’ bout real shit.
Them people playin’
What is you talkin’ bout? I don’t know what y’all sayin’”
- Jay-Z ”What We Talking About?”

I’ve been listening to that song on repeat for the past couple weeks. It sums it all up for me. I’m a little disgruntled with people in general and with pop culture as a whole. Almost everything and everyone seems to spew superficial nonsense to me lately. Where’s the depth yall? Are we are suffice with just staying on the surface?

Maybe I need to lay off the twitter. Between the increasingly ridiculous trending topics, the play by play on all the dumbest tv shows (Frankie & Neffe anyone?), and of course the ever popular ”lemme tell you what Im doing at the club” tweets, maybe twitter has sped up my disdain for pop culture because it serves a big ass sampler platter of it all.

Do I give a shit about Lamar Odom and Khloe Kardashian? Not really.

What did Beyonce eat for breakfast? Why the fuck would I care?

Is Amber Rose’s ass really real? #kanyeshrug

And then there is the beast of “Reality TV”. How or why did anyone see fit to have crooked ass Tom DeLay on “Dancing With The Stars”? Did the producers know that he had to resign his political seat due to pressure coming down because of his illegal activities? Rod Blagojevich tried to sell a Senate seat yo! That is crazy illegal and immoral, and yet…..he did a fucking media tour!!! Letterman, The View, Larry King, etc. WTF? I wont even go in on “Real Housewives of Atlanta” or “Real and Chance”, let alone “Tiny and Toya” or the aforementioned “Frankie and Neffe”. Have I tuned into any of those shows? Yes but it damn sure aint must see TV for me. I aint Tivo’ing that shit!

Of course Im not calling ANYONE out in particular. We are all guilty of some (or in drastic cases…..ALL) of this shit. Everything in moderation though yall. Do what you do I suppose. Far be it from me to say what works for you personally. Im just voicing my frustration at all this monkeyball shit.

I do realize that I may come off as simply venting here and if that is indeed the case I encourage you to gander up at the title of this blog. No not the title of this particular entry, but the title of the blog as a whole. Case closed.

The "Just A Valley" List

2009-09-19T16:04:00.000-07:00

1. “Ooh child things are gonna get easier/Ooh child things’ll be brighter/ Someday….We’ll get it together and we’ll get it all done/Someday when your head is much lighter/Someday….We’ll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun/Someday when the world is much brighter” - The Five Stairsteps “Ooh Child”

2. BFF that was for you AND me! Be strong love.

3. Tis my blog and I tells the truth in this mug, right? Right!

4. And with that said……Im pretty sure Ive been battling probable mild depression for the last month or two

5. Mood swings, generally feeling down, the not give a fuck-ness, unmotivated to do much, financial stress, lack of a love life and relying on my good friend ‘Ze Likka’ a bit too much about adds up to mild depression I think

6. I dont mean to alarm you….Im okay I promise……it’s just a valley that I must see my way through…I’ll be back up in a minute

7. “My shit always work sometimes!” - Mike Lowery

8. Congrats on your impending wedding Nichelle!

9. Oh how I love love…..*sigh*

10. “….Sometimes love takes a long time/But wait for love and you’re gonna get the chance to love/Wait for love, wait for love..” - Luther Vandross “Wait For Love”

11. Boy I tell you….you interrupt one lil white girl country singer’s acceptance speech and ALL the idiots show their true colors!

12. Granted that it was wack of ‘Ye to do, but is it really THAT serious?

13. Sure we’ve made strides, and despite the President being black, we still got a ways to go……..word to Joe “You Lie!” Wilson!

14. Every couple months THEY remind us that we shouldnt get too comfortable just because the President Of The United States is black!

15. I hate for this list to be melancholy but alas it’s the true emotion of the minute so far be it for me to not roll with it

16. Bare with me here….

17. “I dont know what was said, my baby/I thought that everything was fine…/My days and nights would be a living hell if you go away/So think about the misery that you’re gonna put me though….” - Atlantic Starr “Send For Me”

18. LMAO….I really have to laugh at myself and how extra I can be at times

19. Whatsinever is going on with this here cold shoulder/silent treatment situation I’d shole like for it to be over so that life can return to normal

20. That’s how you know it’s real. At least for me anyways. When something goes wrong and you literally have the sick to your stomach feeling. THE WORST I tell you…..

21. Im sure it’ll all be resolved soon. Our shit is too deep, too strong and too solid for it to not be.

22. Shouts out to Reese and Tina Divina on the completion of their poetry book projects. Click the links and support them yall!

23. On the (not so) low…..Teej is on deck with his poetry book as well

24. And if this is your first time reading me….yes I refer to myself in 3rd person alot

25. I love when my friends win and accomplish their dreams

26. If nothing else Im happy for them and it inspires me

27. "I used to be the little engine that could. Now Im the BIG engine that better!” - John Mayer

28. If that aint the realest shit ever……

29. How they gon play up Serena snapping off on the tennis judge and give it hella coverage but Ive barely heard about Roger Federer doing the same thing

30. Plus these marks act like they never heard of John McEnroe before

31. As big a fool as he usta act Im surprised they even let him near organized tennis events

32. Thank ya Jeezus that the whole Beyonce 1st Baby Daddy thing is over now…..(I think)

33. What a clusterfuck!!! If you didnt know before….you know now that all them blog sites be making up shit and copying off each other

34. Trust yall all woulda knew before now if ANYTHING hadda went down with me and Bey back in the day lol

35. “I cant cope with the pressure/settling for lesser/ the Gods left lessons on my dresser/ so I can bloom and blossom….” - Ghostface Killah “Can It All Be So Simple (Remix)”

36. Gosh this is more melancholy than I wanted it to be

37. It’s almost over though so bare with me…..

38. Someone wrote in my facebook honesty box that they thought I was getting bigheaded

39. How Imma be bigheaded whilst a month and half behind on my rent? Where they do that at?

40. So no anonymous person….trust that Im very far from being bigheaded. I try to never say never but I’ll risk it here….I’ll never be bigheaded. Too many folks around would slap me silly if that were the case

41. Dear Jay Cutler, you’re fucking up! Stop that shit! What….you got Rex’s old locker or something?

42. Actually….Dear Chicago Bears as a whole….we wont tolerate that fuck shit this season, period!

43. “Talent is God given. Be humble. Fame is man-given. Be grateful. Conceit is self-given. Be careful. - John Wooden

44. Am I the only one that thinks that maybe Barack is playing too nice with the Repubs as far as this health care issue?

45. Maybe he needs to be on some “Bush/Cheney fuck it shit” and get his agenda done….damn what anyone else gotta say.

46. Errol I know Ive been neglectful of my blog but I think Im back homie!

47. I think I like BP3 and OB4CL2 equally

48. They give me different things but both are dope in their own right

49. Shaneen thanks again for being who you are. And remember…..

50. “…at least I aint on her doorstep yelping her name while butt naked with a peace medallion and snow boots on. Now THAT’S crazy!” - Me

FUCK Rant 6

2009-09-04T15:39:00.000-07:00

FUCK summer for skipping the Chi this year
FUCK Gucci Mane for just simply existing
FUCK Mariah for putting Gucci on the remix of ”Obsessed” so that white people will know he exists!
FUCK everyone at my job for interrupting me while Im trying to type this out
FUCK Chris Brown’s bowtie!

FUCK anyone that doesnt believe that EVERYONE should have health care
FUCK a ‘Free such and such’ tshirt campaign for obviously guilty muffoccurs. They are supposed to be for political prisoners and the wrongly accused. Your cousin did that shit and you know it!
FUCK Paula Deen for her deep fried butter balls. Oh just fucking shoot us already, why dont you?
FUCK stalking and harassing your ex. Push the fuck on dude!
FUCK having to suffer through writer’s block

FUCK the crime/homicide rate in the Chi right about now
FUCK waking up to the news that MY picture has been wrongly attached to a blog about Bey’s first boyfriend. Im TJ….not Lyndell!
F%#K arrogant white males that think they’re entitled to everything just because they’re white males. If yall dont GTFOHWTBS. This aint the 50’s homie!
F%#K not being comfortable in your own skin
F%#K you if you cant dig what it is that an artist does

F%#K BET for the “Frankie & Neffe” show
F%#K every single one of you 1.9 million bastards that tuned in and made “Frankie & Neffe” the highest rated debut in BET history
F%#K the fact that apparently this devastating LA fire was set intentionally
F%#K the critics who got something to say about ANY and EVERYTHING President Obama does. Can he fucking live already?
F%#K people STILL fronting and sweating Mike Vick like he aint already paid enough
F%#K the fact that Jon and Kate are even “stars” now

F%#K all these damn invites to become a fan of something on facebook. If I wanna be a fan of something…dammit I will. You aint gotta presure me into it!
F%#K Whitney’s botched performance on GMA. Whit you can do better
F%#K Pfizer and the rest of the drug companies for being on that bullshit
F%#K you if you aint picking up what Im putting down!

My Faith In Love

2009-08-20T02:03:00.000-07:00

An article recently came out on msnbc.com entitled “Marriage Eludes High-Achieving Black Women”. In this article two Yale researchers supposedly crunched some numbers, did some interviews, and came to the conclusion that the more educated and successful sisters became, the less likely they are to get married and have a family if they so choose. Now maybe my c.o.n. spiracy spidey senses are off a bit but I saw so much innuendo and so many disturbing undertones in this article it literally fucked up my whole day. No for real….I was in a pissy mood for the remainder of the day!

They said that single sisters were hesitant to have a child because they didnt wanna seem “ghetto”, but when a single white women has a child she is deemed “liberal”. Also that another reason for this trend is that there arent enough highly educated/accomplished brothers to go around. And the when the brothers are highly educated/accomplished they tend to “outmarry” AKA marry anybody else but a sister.

I know propaganda when I read it dammit!!! Please heed the words of the great Chuck D yall….‘Dont believe the hype’.

“So THEY say we’re running out of time/ We’re running out of water/ We’re running out of light/ There are far too many questions/ and just not enough answers/ And if we keep on asking THEY gon tell US what WE like!” - Solange “6 O’clock Blues”

After reading the article I passed it along to some friends of mine on Twitter expecting everyone to be equally outraged and disgusted. And while no one was in clear agreeance with the article, there were some who were not as disturbed by it as I thought they would/should be. I think somewhere in this big head of mine I kinda expect all my people to be riders and advocates of black love like me. Now granted I could have been a little too moved by the article but what I (think I) found is that alot of my friends are jaded and skeptical of the durabilty of black love. And that to me is heartbreaking.

Could be the eternal optimist in me. Could be the hopeless romantic. But to hear my friends and peers express the doubts that they do as to whether love, and more specifically BLACK love can endure and last was a bit shocking. While I’d never be so dumb as to think people have to share my views on such matters, I think it just kinda hurts to hear some of the (seemingly) nonchalant attitudes about it that I did.

I feel like I should keep reiterating the fact that I very well could have been not reading/interpreting my friends comments clearly because I was literally seeing (and probably reading) red after that taking in that piece of shit article.

I say all that to say….no matter what….hold on to your faith in love. God is love, right? So dont let anyone or anything shake your faith in either. (You like how I backdoored that, dont ya? lol)

And lemme just close with this : I promise you aint a thing in the world that can make me stop believing in love. No matter what ups and downs I go through as far as my love life I am solaced by the fact that I KNOW in the end I will have the type of love and marriage that I have envisioned for myself. This I know for sure….and I hope you believe in yourself enough to know that you’ll get the love that you deserve as well.

Tainted Love (What Kinda Love Is This....?)

2009-08-09T22:44:00.000-07:00

She said “I don’t know… This guy seems too nice. I’m suspicious.”

And I go “Well damn cant the brother just be genuinely nice?”

Then she replies “Never came across that before. He gives compliments, he wants to see me. WTF?”

Aint that something? The fact that he DOES give compliments and makes it known to her that he wants to see her makes her pump her brakes and put her guards up?!?!? That leads me to wonder what kinda behavior had she experienced before and began to take for “the norm” if those 2 genuine gestures throw her off course.

In “Cant Get Enough Of Your Love Babe” Barry White has a line that goes “What kinda love is this that you’re giving me?”. I’ve always loved that line. You know you getting some real shit when you gotta step back and examine it like “Hold up! This is some new shit! I aint never been loved like this before! What kinda love did you say this was again?” lol

I cant speak for anyone else but I dont know how NOT to wear my heart on my sleeve. If I’m digging on you, you’ll know it. And most likely everyone around me will know it too.

“Im too old to be fronting what Im feeling/Denzel’n acting like you aint appealing when you are” - Jay Z

So Matou if you’re reading….just know that we arent all the same. Some of us are indeed built differently. Some of us are actually pretty damn good at expressing ourselves. Some of us know how to genuinely compliment a woman. Some of us know how to be attentive. Some of us do in fact mean what we say.

It may seem that we’re far and few in between but we’re around love.

The "Angry Black Man In A Elevator" List

2009-07-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

1. “It’s a great day for genocide/ (What’s that?)/ Thats the day all the niggas died/ They killed JFK in ‘63/ so what the fuck you think they’ll do to me?!?!?” - Ice Cube “When Will They Shoot?”

2. Sometimes all this shit makes me wanna revert back to my extra-militant self

3. Got me listening to old Ice Cube, PE and The Coup and shit

4. This Skip Gates fiasco is just getting way outta hand

5. I dont think the “Beer Summit” was of any use since both parties have essentially left the door open to still sue one another

6. I commend President Obama for trying to help but he cant do everything

7. With this being a matter of race and him being…..ya know….black…..and also being…..ya know…..the president I think the presumption of bias on his part is too much

8. The bottom line though is once they were both inside and Gates proved it was his crib that shoulda been the end.

9. I can understand his frustration and mouthing off once inside seeing as though he had just got home from China. Have you any idea of that plane ride and then to come home and hafta deal with this shit?

10. Part of me cant help but wonder if there is a tinsy winsy bit of Gates that is pissed off for being treated like a regular nigga though.

11. On the other hand….I dont think white people will ever fully get it.

12. *cues Rhymefest’s “Angry Black Man On A Elevator”*

13. “My corporate people start bugging when I talk like this/ My corporate thugs be like ‘Nah Hov, talk that shit!’” - Jay-Z “Go Crazy” (Remix)

14. So much for the normal “order” of this list

15. I miss my Johnson girls. I need to get to Nap Town soon

16. What I learned while playing tour guide to my out of town friends is that I need to get out and rediscover my own damn city!

17. Sporadically breaking the day the day monotony of our everyday lives and doing tourist shit in our own cities is very highly recommended

18. Trust that you will be surprised at what you find

19. My friend ‘milah said I’ll never get a girlfriend b/c I stay in my phone too much and it’s draining my inter-personal skills

20. I admit to being bad about my phone but surely Im not THAT bad!

21. It’s not like you’re likely to get the fastest response from me if you tweet me or text me…..

22. ….oh wait, it sorta is….ah well! Get in where ya fit in! lol

23. In case you hadnt heard : Steriod use ran rampant in baseball for a long ass time til about 5 years ago

24. Barry Bonds hit 73 home runs in ONE season yo!!!!!! Come the fuck on!!! 73?!?!!?!?

25. Not to single him out b/c he wasnt the only one but for the life of me…. I dunno why mugs is trying to act all shocked as if this were news

26. Gimme a break…word to Neil Carter!

27. “When you got a girl that takes her time/ you must go with the pace/ You cant mess with her mind/ If she feels the same she’ll let ya know/ Just prepare yourself and be ready to go/ And I hope this message stays in your mind/ cause you almost lost a girl thats right on time/ There’s one more thing you’ve got to know/ Just cool it down/ Stay in controooooool” - New Edition “Cool It Down”

28. So crazy to me how that shit that I sang when I was 7 yrs old can apply to my life as an 31 yr old adult

29. The power of music!

30. “Even though she pays me no attention/ All I wanna do is show her my affection/ Lose myself inside her ebony…/ But she aint even checking for me” - Maxwell “Sumthin’ Sumthin’”

31. I dunno where her head is at. I get the feeling she aint crazy over me like I am over her and well…..that kinda sux

32. Boy I’ll tell you bout me and these dreaming eyes of mine.

33. Alls I can do is continue to adore her. What will be will be I suppose.

34. See it’s stories like THIS make me stay with my argument that people need to test out before being allowed to have kids

35. God bless that little baby……didnt stand a chance. BOTH of the parents were schizophrenic??!!?!?

36. Where they do THAT at!?!!?!?

37. That shit really makes me sad. Makes me feel like….

38. “….and I dont even pray any more at night/ cause I dont think that anyone hears” - Regina Belle “So Many Tears”

39. And then the Burr Oaks shit……..

40. *le sigh*

41. “Every time I turn on the TV/ Somebody’s acting crazy/ If you let it, it’ll drive you crazy/ But Im taking back my power today…./We gotta keep on surviving/ Keeping living our truth and do the best we can do” - India.Arie “There’s Hope”

42. Did I mention that I may flirt a bit becuz (as for now) Im single but as far as Im concerned there’s everyone else and then there is her?

43. He was like ‘Dude she’s wifey material!’, and I was like ‘Nigga I know!!!!’

44. Someone get word to Nick & Mariah to let this one go. They do not wanna go back and forth with dude

45. Here we are at August and ‘SummaTime Chi’ STILL aint really kicked in….but it may be for the best becuz Chicago niggas obviously aint knowing how to act when the weather hits north of 80!

46. Remember yall….any and all shit you go through in this life is temporary and time will prove it to not to matter as much as you originally thought

47. The old folks say Ive been here before. I’s wise I tell ya!

48. This list seems to be pretty dark and melancholy

49. Let’s get some humor in b/c laughter is good for the soul….

50. “I went to Zimbabwe. I know how white people feel in America now; relaxed! Cause when I heard the police car I knew they weren’t coming after me!” - Richard Pryor

Love Is.....

2009-07-11T02:05:00.001-07:00

Love is smiling at the sound of her name

Love is encouragement

Love is a Stevie song

Love is a Nikki poem

Love is being there when needed and it eating you inside when you cant be

Love is stronger than pride

Love is taking pleasure in pleasing her

Love is nuturing

Love is sacrifice

Love is making her fall in love over and over and over again

Love is playing their favorite song when they’ve had a bad day

Love is brave

Love is genuine adoration

Love is selflessness

Love is listening

Love is not being afraid to be vulnerable

Love is usually written all over your face

Love is magic in a bottle

Love is not wanting to be anywhere else

Love is a kind gesture w/o expecting anything in return

Love is giving

Love is taking the ribbing from the fellas on her behalf

Love is going the extra mile because you know they’re worth it

Love is an energy field

Love is confident

Love is patient

Love is empathizing

Love is communicating by eye from across the room when it’s full of people

Love is rebellious

Love is possible

Love is complicated

but

Love is worth it

The "Rock And A Hard Place" List

2009-07-03T21:39:00.000-07:00

1. “And when the groove is dead and gone/ You know that LOVE survives/ so we can rock forever on” - Michael Jackson “Rock With You”

2. God bless Michael, Farrah, Chasity Turner, little Jada Justice, and their families

3. Live your life yall.

4. Go out and find joy. Make your own damn joy if you gotta. Just be joyful!

5. So I think I get that BET was trying to save time by not bothering to go through the nominees before they announced the award winners….but what was up with Jamie Foxx and Ne-Yo performing 3 times each?!?!?!!

6. And as for the BET Awards show overall…..welp I’ll chalk it up to them only having 3 days after Michael’s passing to change it up. Period.

7. Oh and one more thing…..after her performance is it safe to say that Beyonce is slowly but surely changing into the black Barbara Striesand?

8. Artest to the Lakers? If you cant beat ‘em you join ‘em I guess lol

9. It’s gonna be a really different NBA this year folks

10. “…but slip up and shoot the wrong fucking video/ and they think they can market you however that they decide to!’ - Drake “Say What’s Real”

11. And he said that BEFORE the “Best I Ever Had” video fiasco

12. I think dancing to “Bad Mamajama” and “Brickhouse” was pretty appropriate

13. Note To Self : As someone who DOESNT do spicy food, know that wasabi is NOT your friend!

14. So finally, a cool 8 months after the election, they declare Al Franken the winner for Jr. Senator of Minnesota. I thought they were gonna bamboozle him.

15. My LA vacay was the shit!!!

16. The time away from the Hotel Beezy was much needed……..

17. …..but alas I still didn’t get to see ALL my peeps. *sigh* I know too many damn people.

18. What’s it mean that I enjoyed myself at the live music spot with the cover band playing all my favorite 70’s jams waaaaaaay more than DJ So&So playing all the newest shit at Club Anywhere, USA?

19. Im so damn grown up I swear……at times

20. “….they don’t use the ink like me/ Niggas dont even THINK like me!/ Who sees what Im watching? ?!?!?” - Joe Budden “Dumb Out”

21. These international affairs (Cynthia McKinney imprisoned in Israel, Iran, North Korea, etc.) ain’t no joke!

22. Pray for patience, guidance and wisdom for President Obama in having to deal with all this madness

23. Being single but really digging on someone is why the term “between a rock and a hard place” was invented

24. Talk about feeling like you’re walking a tightrope……..

25. I need a rap name….STAT!

26. Go here : http://metasmith.com/?page_id=3 ……buy Meta’s shit. Its good reading, trust!

27. That was fun while it lasted. I suppose it couldn’t last forever. It was what we needed to be at the time and for that I’m grateful

28. Seen any good black love story movies lately?

29. We gotta do better in supporting black cinema yall

30. “God writes a lot of comedy. The trouble is he’s stuck with so many bad actors who dont know how to play funny!” - Mitch Hedberg

Love Survives…...So We Can Rock Forever!

2009-06-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

“And when the groove is dead and gone/ You know that Love survives/ So we can rock forever…..” - “Rock With You”

To actually be in Los Angeles as all this has went in down is beyond surreal. There really doesnt seem to be sufficient words to say all that should be said. Or perhaps it’s that nothing really needs to be said?

There were singers/entertainers………..and then there was Michael.

Have you any idea of what it’s like to arguably be THE most famous person on the planet for 25 or so years?!?!!? There isnt a continent, let alone country that you can go to and it not be an event. The pressure!

And yet he was still human. Still the quiet and shy kid from Gary, Indiana that loved to sing and dance. It just so happened that he sung and danced exceptionally well. So well that it put him on a global stage that was more demanding of any one person than basic humanity should allow.

Above and beyond anything else, he was an extraordinary human being that contributed great gifts to just about all our lives. And THAT is how he should be remembered. THAT is how I am going to remember him.

He is Michael Jackson.

He is eternal.

What Pulls You Through?

2009-06-12T21:28:00.000-07:00

“It’s hard to be a spiritual being when shit is shaking what you believe in!” - Talib Kweli

When the bills pile up faster than you can pay them, and your significant other aint acting right for whatever reason, and you cant have a good day at work for crying out loud, and life shows you it’s shitty side……how do you pull through?

Who or what do you believe in that helps you maintain?

I’ve recently had a friend die unexpectedly, and the sibling of a friend succumb to cancer, topped off by falling behind on some bills becuz I tried to help people out, and at times it just seems I cant win for losing! It all just seems a bit too much for any one person to have to shoulder and bear.

But you know what?

I feel pretty good. And while Im not exactly sure that what doesnt kill you makes you stronger (becuz it’s my belief that you may not die, but you can still be pretty fucked up for a long time), I do know that with time ANYTHING is possible. In time, you heal and learn to deal with people’s passing. In time, you’ll catch up on those bills and make arrangements to alleviate the financial burden. In time, you’ll work your way through it. Whatever it is.

I have faith in the Most High, but more importantly I have a supreme faith in ME! No matter what comes my way, I am confident that I will find a way to work through it. Whatever it is.

This life can be the most beautifulest thing in the world, and it can be one tough son of a bitch. Most times it’s usually whichever of the two that you choose. But sometimes good people get a raw deal. And in those moments when the best of the best and the most innocent are dealt seemingly unfair hands what do you do? How do you deal? That answer is up to the individual. You kinda hafta make your own way. No one has ALL the answers. We are all just doing the best we can.

Just a little something to keep in mind.

An Open Letter To Rush Limbaugh

2009-06-05T21:04:00.000-07:00

Dear Mr. Limbaugh,

I don’t even know where to start with you.

Stating that ‘I wish you’d hurry up and die already’ may strike some as being extremely harsh or even hateful, but when at all possible I try to call a spade a spade so to speak. So yeah….I wish you’d hurry up, keel the fuck over, and croak already.

Now…..you may find yourself asking WHY I feel so strongly and why I hope that you’d permanently STFU. Well, to be quite honest with you, I think you’re asshole.

It’s one thing to have your opinion. But to spew the kind of hateful, non-logical, divisive, vile, and insensitive rhetoric you spew and then hide behind just ‘wanting to maintain America’s values’??!!?!?!? Lemme not even get started on the “values” America was founded on. That’s a whole other blog.

My favorite example of your glowing hypocrisy is the drug thing. Remember that time you had said that “anyone who uses drugs illegally should be dragged onto the street and shot”? Remember? You were there when you said it in case you don’t recall. But then what had happened Rush? Oh that’s right…. It came to light that YOU were struggling with your own illegal drug addiction. Had we taken your advice we should dragged your stank cakey ass in the street and did you Rosewood style!

The fact that you said you hope President Obama fails is just beyond me. Or when you said that Colin Powell endorsed Obama strictly because they are both black? Nevermind all the reasons Powell clearly laid out as to his decision. And then how you were already calling Judge Sotomayor a “reverse racist” damn near before Obama had finished the sentence to officially nominate her for the supreme court? And now with all the backlash, and more importantly the thought that you may not wanna piss everyone off too badly with upcoming 2010 mid-term elections you were forced to retract the “reverse racist” statement.

So Mr. Limbaugh, please be my guest. Go even FURTHER on the right wing. Keep going further and further on that bitch til you fall off of it!

If there truly is an afterlife, I hope you end up skewed on a bar-b approximately 3 inches above one of the many raging fires in hell rotating reeeeeeeeeally slowly!

P.S. When you finally do kick the bucket one sweet day I plan to celebrate your birthday every year……in my own special way

Sincerely,

TJ Armour

The “Full Expression Of My Personality” List

2009-05-29T21:00:00.000-07:00

1. “Just give me a minute/ I betcha er’thang gon turn out lovely/ Just give me a minute/ Imma be alright…..just trust me!” - “Bubba Sparxxx “Lovely”

2. And I start this one off with that quote becuz dammit Im finna do some venting on this list. I think we’re going to ‘50′ on this like we usta do!

3. Stick around and read if you like. If not….I’ll see ya when I see ya I guess

4. I hate to say it but….I got some straight up niggers in my family

5. And yes with the ‘er’ as opposed to the ‘a’ at the end.

6. You try to help niggers and they just shit all over you!

7. Damn shame these mugs is my blood….came out my daddy nut sac just like me and I gotta cut them off!

8. Learn the power of saying ‘NO’ my good people

9. It will save you TONS of grief down the line…..trust!

10. “Tell me now/Can you make it past your Caspers?/ So we can finally fly off into NASA/….We were never meant to be/Baby we just happened/ So PLEEEEASE dont mess up the trick/ Hey Young World…Im the new Slick Rick/ They say I move too quick/but we cant let this moment pass us…” - Kanye West “Knock You Down” (Keri Hilson)

11. Say what you want about ‘Ye but he damn sure can write and (when he raps!) deliver some shit that most people can relate to

12. I dunno about that autotune singing business tho….

13. Awww man D. Rose say it so. Say they didnt alter your grades so that your transcript could get you in a D1 school and set you up to play ball even tho your grades prolly woulda left you ineligible. Say it aint so mannnnnnnn……

14. ….but then again yall have heard him talk, right? Im just saying…..

15. Chicago go see EDF3 sketch comedy at the HWCC on 6/6! 3pm show and 7pm show. They are all funny than a mug AND fine as hell…..plus we GOTS to support black business yall. Check ‘em out for yourself : www.elitedeltaforce3.com

16. One time for President Obama on nominating Sonia Sotomayor for the Supereme Court

17. Rush Limbaugh I hope you fall down a STEEP flight of steps and land on your esophagus in a really akward position so you can finally STFU!

18. “If it takes a near-death experience for you to appreciate your life, you’re wasting somebody’s time” - Nikki Giovanni

19. Shout out to Dave and Jamila on celebrating their 4th anniversary! I love love!!! Especially young black love!

20. I know I often say Cliff & Clair, Martin & Gina, and Paul & Jamie (from “Mad About You”) are my favorite couples but they are make believe.

21. Dave & Jamila are real life. So are Los & Tonya, Drew & Dee, and Erik & Kiela

22. Shout out to Dotty for tagging me as “The Hopeless Romantic” in that picture as opposed to “The Flirt” lol

23. Granted I can be both….Im definitely more hopeless romantic than flirt

24. *Sigh*

25. God bless Exodus Tyson and all her loved ones

26. Reyna Jazz….although it had been a while since we had spoken I know you know that you were my girl. I still dont think I’ve fully accepted the fact that you’re gone. It just isnt really registering with me but still…I close my eyes and I see your smile and that makes me smile. I thank you for being a friend and I know your spirit surrounds us all. Rest easy my love and God bless you

27. “Everywhere I go/ Every smile I see/ I know you are there/ Smiling back at me/ Dancing in moonlight/ I know you are free/Cuz I can see your star/ Shining down on me…” - Janet Jackson “Together Again”

28. That songs ALWAYS makes me smile and feel happy and dance for all the people I know that have passed on

29. I really think I have a very unorthodox view on death as I dont really believe it to be something to necessarily be sad about

30. It’s really such an inevitable part of life. Sometimes the circumstances of a person’s death troubles me more than the actual death but I digress….

31. Life can definitely be heavy, huh?

32. Wine Fest ‘09 is not looking good for the kid and well…..that just sucks BIG octopus nuts

33. At it’s worst…Adulthood sucks becuz there will be times you hafta miss out on shit you’d rather not miss out on so that you can do what you know you must do

34. At it’s best….Adulthood is the shit becuz you can do shit like have Ice Cream for dinner and stay up as long as you want!

35. “…for there are times when I fall short of what I say /What I say Im all about” - Isley Bros. “At Your Best”

36. I am far from perfect. This I know. I am but a man. But dammit if I aint one extraordinary man if I may say so my gotdamn self

37. You just gotta pat yourself on the back sometimes I think

38. 5 people shot on 53rd and Halsted? WTF?!!?!??

39. Summertime Chi is shaping up to look scary as shit

40. It almost seems like a fucking truck full of guns just broke down in the middle of the hood and was abandoned

41. Who the fuck DOESNT have a gun? Who the fuck WONT shoot you if the wind blows the wrong way?

42. Jody Weis handle you mu’fuckin bidness or push the hell on man!

43. “I want freedom for the full expression of my personality!” - Mahatma Gandhi

44. In other words : Let me be me or just let me be!

45. Not that Im one to clarify or add on to anything Gandhi says but you get the point, right? lol

46. Sometimes I think I should just get me a Dub G like my Uncle Ankie and be done with all this madness

47. LMAO! Yeah right! My ol miltant, pro black ass?!?!!?

48. North Korea are you for real with this nuclear shit?

49. Dont you know we will blow your lil piece of shit country into the bottom of the ocean if you dont quit playing!?!?!?

50. “The only thing that scares me more than space aliens is the idea that there aren’t any space aliens. We CAN’T be the best that creation has to offer. I pray we’re not all there is. If so, we’re in BIG trouble!” - Ellen DeGeneres

The Golden Lady & This Rocket Love (First Draft)

2009-05-22T20:55:00.000-07:00

So maybe you think Im doing too much
and perhaps it all seems a bit too soon
but baby Im ready to get to the good part
and I dont wanna wait a single day longer

I know you dont think you’re ready but
perfect timing is just a figment of the imagination.
Sometimes you just gotta jump at it when you have the chance

Its all trial and error
No one really knows for sure how it goes
I figure everyone has their own opinion of it
but as long as you are willing to meet your partner in the middle
I suspect you’ll be alright in the end

So….you ready to ride this rocket love to the sky and beyond my Golden Lady?
Hold on tight now becuz the ride may get bumpy at times and you know they WILL try to shoot us down
Its not everyday that anyone gets to go on this trip, ya know?

Let me know when you’re ready
I’ll be out front revving the rocket

Just To Get A Rep

2009-05-15T20:52:00.000-07:00

This one here was inspired by my homegirl @arounddawaygyrl (Thats her twitter handle if you arent hip to twitter just yet). So she sends out the tweet with the link and I clicked on it and I was just blown away. I just cant fathom how or why you’d want yourself to be seen like this!

And so it got me to thinking…..in this age of youtube and reality tv stars, it’s not really that hard to make yourself “famous” ~~for all the wrong reasons~~ if that’s what your main objective is. You have the “Why Must I Cry” dude, the “In The Butt” dude *pause*, cant forget T-Baby singing bout how cold it is “In The D“, and even the classic joint by Tay Zondray “Chocolate Rain” (37 million hits and counting!) that got him on The Jimmy Kimmel show!

Least we mention the pure Niggerdom of such joints as “Fry That Chicken“, “Let Me Smell Yo Dick” and so on and so forth.

I guess my point of this all is……is fame THAT alluring? To the point that you will shame your family name to be “famous”? I cant imagine being an internet smash singing “Why Must I Cry” and then going to the family reunion and being proud of that shit. My granny Ms. Evelyn (God rest her soul) woulda told me about myself in a way that woulda included lots and lots of cuss words. im sure these people got kids. Who the hell wants to be known as the kid whose mama sang “Let Me Smell Yo Dick”?

I dunno yall. Maybe Im bugging out. Maybe I got it all wrong. Just doesnt seem to me that it’s all worth it in the end. The end justifies the means they say. But is it really like that?

FUCK Rant 5

2009-05-08T20:50:00.000-07:00

F%#K Pat Robertson for this ol ignoramus ass shit http://mediamatters.org/clips/200905070024
F%#K this detox for keeping me away from my sweet riesling
F%#K TCF, Comcast, Chase and all my other creditors for stressing me
F%#K being single!
F%#K Lil Wayne for making a song that goes “I wish I could fuck every girl in the world“……..and having the nerve for it to be catchy!

F%#K the fact that they are just now arresting Drew Peterson’ s ol wife killing ass
F%#K my TMobile Dash for playing with my emotions and then magically working again
F%#K North Korea and Kim Jong II for staying on this nuke shit
F%#K Cassie for letting them pics leak. “Hacked” my ass!
F%#K whomever for not putting away or REALLY supervising that 14 yr old boy that twice impersonated the police and NOW test drove and stole a Lexus from the dealer

F%#K Manny Ramirez for taking whatever the hell he took and getting suspended
F%#K this recession (up against a walll, really hard, with no lube)
F%#K being in a state of limbo with your feelings
F%#K the Swine Flu hysteria and hype
F%#K my roommate for letting me open the fridge and seeing HELLA bags from Leona’s knowing Im on this detox and cant eat none of it

F%#K being warned about a possible “swine flu/bird flu” mix
F%#K fear tactics to control the people
F%#K people who dont know that they are assholes
F%#K Twitter for being so damn addictive
F%#K Fox News Channel in general for all intents and purposes

F%#K pretty much my whole father’s side of the family
F%#K DWTS for kicking Lil Kim off. I hear she was killing it
F%#K Brett Favre for being one indecisive summa-bitch
F%#K anyone that causes any of my peeps grief
F%#K “Chicago Larry” for believing his own hype and not knowing the difference between being laughed WITH and being laughed AT!

The "Being Human Is My Crime" List

2009-05-02T18:45:00.000-07:00

1. “There is nothing special about me…..I am just a little star/ If you try to reach out and touch me/ you’ll see that….I’m not really that far/ I may not be the brightest nor am I the last one you’ll see/ but as long as I’m noticed/ that’s just fine with me” - Kelis Feat. Cee-Lo “Lil Star”

2. Yo no lie….this song has been on repeat for like the last 30 hours as I type this

3. It’s a weird mix of melancholy, humble and reflective I think

4. Whatever the case I simply can not stop listening to it

5. Swine Flu?…………*shrug*

6. Maybe, just maybe with the recession going like it is….the health industry put this shit in the air so it can get it’s loot up

7. I mean they fucking injected unsuspecting humans with syphillis once upon a time to see its affect on them so I cant put shit past none of these government agencies

8. But is it me or are ALL the symptoms of the “swine flu” kinda identical to the regular ass flu flu?

9. Like my girl @Slim_Goodie said “First Anthrax, mad cow disease, SARS, west nile disease, flesh eating bacteria, bird flu, etc. Now it’s swine flu. What next? Fear tactics!”

10. “…..see that’s how they get your fear to control you” - Black Thought (The Roots) “False Media”

11. Yall believe what ya wanna but I’ll be over here on my PE “Dont Believe The Hype” shit!

12. Will somebody please tell Eddie Murphy that Mike Epps actually DOES make more sense to play Richard Pryor than he does?

13. OMG has any other President’s first 100 days been as heavily and closely scruntinzed and analyazed?

14. But you already know why that is, right?

15. I must admit that secretly I didnt give the Bulls a Krispy Kreme’s chance at Fat Joe’s crib of being able to hang with the Celtics but boy have they proved me wrong!

16. With 4 of the 6 games thus far going into OT, including last night’s 3OT victory, this is sure to go down as one of the greatest opening round series in NBA history!

17. I mean we trying to do our part and give back to the community or whatever and I dunno about the boy D’Leo but I was a lil unsure about doing the career day at the junior high but…..

18. …..the lil duns turned out to be alright after all

19. I AM writing fool! *gives YOU the side eye* lol

20. “Just keep trying and trying/ It’s just a matter of timing/ Though the grinding is tiring/ Don’t let ‘em stop you from smiling/ Just keep trying and trying/ Sooner or later you’ll find it/ It’s surprising how inspiring/ it is to see you shining/ Cause in the dark of the night you’re all I can see/ and you sure look like a star to me” - Kelis Feat. Cee-Lo “Lil Star”

21. Again I cant even speak to how much this song has sunk into my subconcious!

22. I feel like standing outside her crib and playing Destiny Child’s “No No No” loud as fuck on some John Cusack “Say Anything” shit but the more I think on it….that would be counterproductive

23. lol & smdh @ me

24. Things sure are peachy in ‘Teej World’ I tell ya….

25. My praying has been raggedy as of late. I need to fix that.

26. Happy retirement to NBC’s Art Norman

27. RIP Ernie Barnes & Bea Arthur

28. Andy I’m praying for you and the fam

29. And once more for the road……

30. “There is nothing special about me…..I am just a lil star/ I’ve been running and jumping, but barely/ getting over the bar/ I plan on being much more than I am/ but that’s in due time/ But until then I’m guilty/ and being human’s my crime….” - Kelis Feat. Cee-Lo “Lil Star”

To Justify Their Thug….

2009-04-25T18:00:00.000-07:00

When I was 10 I tried to kill my babysitter.

Like for real for real….me, my brother and cousin tried to take that chick out the game! My brother was a year younger and my cousin, a year older. We felt bullied, picked on, and treated unfairly. So much so that we tried to off her ass. We would tell my mama but she wasnt trying to hear us. What 10 year old DOES like their babysitter? We didnt get hardcore and stab her in her sleep or anything. We did little kid shit. We found some medicine with her name on it in the fridge and threw it away. We also once put kitchen cleaner in the glass of water she asked for, but she didnt drink it. Said it looked “too soapy”.

We were 9, 10 and 11. This grown ass woman was bigger and stronger than us. What the fuck else could we do but this petty shit?

And I tell you that story to make this point…….dont believe EVERYTHING you hear or read about the pirates off the coast of Somalia.

That country is STARVING yo! Ribs is touching. Back pockets meeting in the middle. For years all the bigger and badder countries have been swooping by, dumping its garbage and waste on the land, and robbing the land (and people) of all its riches and finally the people had had enough and basically said “Look we aint finna take much more of this! We might not be able to all out go to war with you, but we aint gon take this lying down no more!”

And so……they fucking bring back piracy of all things! Im not saying it’s right. Im not saying that I condone it………….but I do understand it.

“The pirates villianized by the media are no more than fisherman, who made a living by selling fish and seafood caught off the shore of Somalia in an area dubbed the ‘Horn of Africa’. Left to their own devices they banded together and created a network that manned the shores and waters. Frustrated by the dumping and the damage to their livelihoods they began to tax and hold for ransom boats that entered their territory.” says Chloé A. Hillard, a journalist who recently wrote on the subject.

Makes sense, no? Funny how the media coverage doesnt really present that side of the situation. Funny indeed, but not really surprising when you think about it.

An Open Letter To Joe Pedott (Creator Of The Obama Chia Pet)

2009-04-10T18:29:00.000-07:00

Dear Mr. Pedott,

Over the years I’ve enjoyed the commercials for your products. Who can forget that happy little old white lady clapping her lights off and turning to get a good night’s sleep in one smooth rhythmic motion? And the “Chia Pet” jingle has always been a favorite of mine : “Ch-Ch-Ch-Chia!”. I love that shit man!!!!!!

With that said though, I must tell you that I am gravely disturbed by your latest Chia “pet”. An Obama Chia Pet? Is THAT what’s hot up in these streets right now? So you say it came to you in a dream, eh? Funny thing about dreams : Sometimes they can make no fucking sense!!!!! You know I once dreamed that I decapitated 3 people with a machete for no good reason? You know what else? I DID NOT FUCKING FOLLOW THROUGHWITH IT!!!!

At no time did it occur to you that this was possibly in bad taste and just would not be a good look? You ran it by some key staffers and despite their reservations you decided to press on?

Now listen Joey…..in my heart of hearts I think you are just a businessman who saw an opportunity to capitalize on this Obama Mania andyou acted on it. I don’t think you meant any harm or ill will. Honestly I don’t even think it to be a racial matter. (You prolly thought I would pull the race card, right? Not this time man, not this time.) You were simply gettingit while the getting’s good, huh? I guess you figured if Strokers “Gentlemen’s” club in Atlanta can have an Obama party, you sure as hell could get away with an Obama Chia Pet!

The sad reality ofall thisis that inevitably there will be people to buy this crap. You will more than likely make a profit and it will all be worth it to you because no matter how dumb, distasteful, and/or outright outrageous, there will ALWAYS be some total re re to buy it.

I ain’t mad at ya tho pimpin’.

Sincerely,

TJ Armour

The “We Aint Scared Of Success” List

2009-04-05T12:51:00.000-07:00

1. “Ummmmm….I dont mean no harm/but ya boy Young Hov got a mean ol arm/and all the young ladies wanna lean on him/and I dont turn ‘em away/Im like ‘Bring them on’…” - Jay Z “Somebody’s Girl”

2. I mean thats what everybody thinks of me, right? lol

3. Obviously that whole perception of me irks me but oh well…what can you do but live your life, right?

4. This Ani lyric (@ No. 10) seems fitting but I’ll refrain from blogging it for the 64,973 rd time

5. I’ll say this though : Think/Believe what you wanna….but when I pop up all boo’d up all of a sudden, dont say I aint warn ya!

6. *steps down from soapbox*

7. Can anyone tell me when this Steve Harvey mania will be over with already?

8. Whose dumb ass idea was it to have him on BOTH ‘GCI and V103 at the same damn time anyways?

9. …..and lemme find out that he jacked that book idea/title from someone else….

10. “Procrastination is fear of success. People procrastinate because they’re afraid of the success they know’ll result if they move ahead now because success is heavy and carries responsibility. It is much easier to procrastinate and live on the ’someday I’ll’ philosophy.” - Unknown

11. Pretty damn deep, huh?

12. Leo my dude….I KNOW we aint scared of success. Let’s “get some shit”

13. Anyone notice that I write/blog/type like I actually talk?

14. Talk about insensitivty and stupidity mixed with “authority” and a gun. Dude should be unemployed period!

15. Now dude will claim up and down that it aint race related, but we know better

16. Are you on twitter yet?

17. Can facebook get off their nuts already and get back to doing their own thing?

18. I…will….not…blackout….with…..my….tax return….and….spend…stupidly…I…will….not…blackout….with…..my….tax return….and….spend…stupidly……

19. Yall pray for me on that one, k?

20. “…thats’ why I gotta make ALL the money! ALLLLLLL the money!” - Dotty

21. She’s such a go getter. I *heart* her

22. I’ve never seen a President more closely scrutinized and criticized inside his first 90 days….

23. ….but then again are we REALLY that surprised?

24. Sorry to all you Duke fans (and yeah….Im mostly talking to YOU lol)

25. Happy Bornday Mommy Dearest!

26. As far as food….as of late….Ive had the self control of a 7 year old in a muffinking (take ur time with that one) candy factory!

27. Shout out to HavMax for granting me the right to use ‘muffoccur(s)’ and ‘muffinking’. But where were you when I was kid and wanted to cuss soooo bad?

28. “SUPERIOR RADIO” IS THE SHIT and if you dont believe me, tune in and check us out on Tuesdays at 8:30pm cst on www.swanksociety.com

29. None of us are perfect but as long as we continue to put our “good foot down” I got a sneaky suspicion that we’ll be alright

30. “Have you ever noticed that anybody driving slower than you is an idiot, and anyone going faster than you is a maniac?” - George Carlin

Can Men And Women Be (Just) Friends??!?

2009-03-22T15:07:00.000-07:00

The debate on whether men and women can be platonic friends seems to be eternal. At the risk of this possibly being the last blog I ever write becuz the lench mob has gotten a hold of me…. I am gonna step out on a limb and tell you the ~~somewhat~~ complete and honest truth about this matter.

Ladies are you sure you’re ready? REALLY REALLY sure? Okay here goes….

Can men and women be just friends? The answer is a resounding yes!

But know that that ‘yes‘ comes with one condition. What is this condition you may ask? The condition is this : Men and Women can be just friends, but women must keep in mind that given the right circumstances the man would almost ALWAYS let it go down.
(Please take note that this is ALL my factual opinion, interpretation, and point of view on the situation. Also notice that I use words like ’rarely’, ‘almost’, ‘pretty much’, and ‘probably’. Real non-committal type words, ya dig?)

What are these circumstances you may ask? First, let me go back and preface this whole blog by saying that all that I’ve said thus far and all that I will say is with the presumption that both parties are single and unattached. Get it? Got it? Good.

Now where was I? Oh yeah…..the “circumstances”. Now the circumstances vary from man to man. Some men could be okay with a drunken conquest after a night of kicking it. Some men might wait til she cries on his shoulder after she breaks up with a dude. Like I said….it varies. But the point is clear. The man is pretty much assured of always letting it go down if it got that far. The man is ~~almost~~ NEVER the one to say “Hold up. We shouldn’t be doing this!” That just doesn’t happen!

Now by no means am I saying that we are swarming like vultures and biding our time til the perfect opportunity arises for us to strike. Please don’t misconstrue the point that I’m trying to convey. We are not trying to knock down every one of our female friends.

It’s just that sometimes you find yourself in a situation that you ~~only kinda imagined in your head like 6000 times but~~ hadnt planned on ever really happening and then the conqueror in us comes out. But maybe I’ve said too much already.

Ladies just know that we can be friends with nothing ever ever happening. But ladies…also know that at the very very least we may have already played the scenario out in our heads before the formal introduction between was completed.

I’m sorry if ths blog has let any of you down. We’re men. We think of sex, much like you gals think of shoes, like every 3.4 seconds. Thats just how it is.

Throw Bernie UNDER The Jail!

2009-03-13T17:49:00.000-07:00

“Dont do the crime/if you cant do the time/but Im rollin’/so thats a fucked up slogan!” - Ice Cube “We Had To Tear This Muthafucka Up”

So as you may or may not have heard, Bernie Madoff, former head of the NASDAQ Stock Exchange was recently convicted of fraud, perjury, and a whole bunch of other shit. He pulled off the biggest caper in like all of history when he swindled hundreds of people out of anywhere between 50-65 BILLION dollars.

Yes you read that right. I said BILLION with a ‘B’!!!! He got everyone from big Hollywood stars to working class folks to non profit charities. He was found guilty of all charges and faces up to 150 years behind bars.

He is 70 years old and quite frankly I hope his punk ass gets ALL 150 years. I hope when he does die that they leave his body in the cell for the duration of his sentence! And it might sound like Im being non-sensical but c’mon. You know the type of ‘good ol boys’ treatment these white collar criminals get. Their ‘jail’ be looking like a country club and shit. Dude stole 50 BILLION yo! Meanwhile mu’fuckin Craig who got busted for selling a 20 sack of weed is sentenced to the maximum first time offense sentence of like 10 years HARD TIME. You know the story.

Damn the ACLU….I think when you get convicted of some bogus shit like this all your civil rights as human are out the door! This dude needs to be on some straight boot camp, license plate making, $.12 an hour dish-washing, peas and water everyday for the rest of his life shit!

Yall watch. Wait til all this shit blows over and the hype dies down. Dude is going to one of the country club jails to get his chill on. Meanwhile the damn 90 year old lady who he took for her whole life’s savings is gonna be ass out when she has to go back to work to make ends meet!

I know life aint always fair but really………